Sarah Paulson Mental Health One-Shots

Recovery -Cordelia x Mina x Reader

TW: Drinking, mention of rehab, suicidal thoughts

Word count: 1865

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You knew it was wrong. You knew you would give into Madison's idea. After all your hard work in rehab and all the effort your two girlfriends made to keep you from drinking again, you knew this was a horrible decision.

Yet here you were, chugging on tequila like it was water and you just walked through the desert. You let the liquor burn your throat and fill you up. Everything had been so much lately and it was your only outlet. Madison was sitting in the corner, lighting a cigarette without a care in the world as you held the bottle close to you, bracing yourself for another swing.

"You okay over there?" Maddie scoffs as you exhale after more intake. You just stare down and nodded. "If you tell Wilhemina and Cordelia I gave you that, I'll literally fucking kill you. Those two hound over you like you're their damn pet."

"I won't. They're gonna... drag me back to rehab if I do..." You said, slurring your words. Madison just sits, staring at the wall.

The alcohol really started to take effect when you stood up.

"Where are you going?"

"To bed."

"Okay try not to wake up the entire house got it?" she scoffed, then taking a picture of herself on her phone. You just nodded and went into the hallway. Your brain clearly wasn't working right, seeing you were continuously bumping into the walls and couldn't figure out which door was the bedroom of your two girlfriends. You finally figured it out and slowly opened the door. Cordelia and Wilhemina were sitting up, reading and look over to you.

"Hey baby are you ready for bed?" Cordelia asks with a loving smile. "We were going to wait for you are you alright?" Your relationship was a secret to the rest of the coven so you would normally sneak into their room at night and sleep with them.

"Y-yeah I- bathroom," you mumbled, stumbling to the bathroom door and closing it. You sit on the ground and soon lay down, enjoying the cool feeling of the tiles beneath you. You then hear a knock at the door along with Wilhemina's voice.

"y/n are you alright?"

You just lay on the ground and stay silent. You couldn't let them know you were drunk. They would be so disappointed. You felt tears form in your eyes and close them, feeling as if you were spinning. You then open them slightly to see the tall woman in purple kneeling next to you on the ground. Her red, loosely-curled hair hung by her face. Cordelia then rushes to the bathroom and you feel her warm hand on your face.

"I'm sorry," you whispered, moving your head side to side, closing your eyes again.

"y/n open your eyes," Cordelia said sternly yet sorrowfully. "Are you drunk?"

You just look at the two women and let the tears fall down your face.

"I'm so so sorry. I- I couldn't help it I just- I don't know," you breathed out in frustration, knowing you weren't making any sense. You see Wilhemina put a hand over her eyes and bite her lip, trying not to cry. "I'm so sorry please don't be mad at me," you said, stretching your words.

"Mina, help me get her into the bath," Cordelia says, standing up to turn on the faucet. You let your eyes close once again and felt yourself talking but you couldn't even comprehend your own words.

"I'm such a horrible person I'm so sorry I didn't mean to like- I could've not done this but I did. I'm so sorry," you mumbled as Wilhemina strokes your hair.