We'll Be Fine

Chapter Nine: Lovely

4 months later:

Lizzie's POV:

It's been longer than two weeks. Four months and 13 days. I counted everyday I didn't see or hear from her. I know I told her to not come back but I didn't mean it. I told her I hate her and that I wouldn't be waiting for her but here I was, doing the opposite. I couldn't help it. I'm still hopelessly in love with her. I just want her to come back.

I haven't left my bed much and my room even less. I've pretty much holed myself in here. I have no reason to go out there. Hope isn't here. It was a little after 7 in the morning. I just woke up and I could already here a whole bunch of commotion out there. I almost didn't get up until I heard someone say something about Hope Mikaelson being back. I've heard this a few times within the last two months. I ignored it and tried to fall back asleep but that was cut short by Josie rushing in.

"Lizzie? Lizzie! Wake up! It's Hope." She said out of breath. I shot up out of bed and instantly ran out of the room with Josie on my tail. "She's in the dinning hall with everyone." She said as I cut the corner to the stairs that lead now. I made it to the edge of the stairs and there she was, standing there in the middle of everyone. She looked up and our eyes locked. It was like time didn't exist and no one mattered. She was here and I was looking right at her. She gave me a sad, small smile before looking away. The school year was only 3 months in so she doesn't have much to catch up on.

"Aren't you going to go say hi?" Josie asked from behind me. I shook my head and looked at her one more time before disappearing back to my room. This was all too much. Yes, I wanted Hope to come back but I wasn't ready, I still haven't forgiven her. I got back to my room and cuddled into my bed again. I mean I'm happy she's alive and seems to be ok. She looked a little pale but other than that she looks like the same Hope from 4 months ago. 

I managed to cry myself to sleep long enough to feel a little better. I'm truly surprised I still have any tears left. I've cried every day and night since I last talked to Hope. I never felt this way before. Not before her at least. This isn't how I wanted to start the new year. I wanted to put this all behind me but then again, I prayed every night for her to come back to me and here she is. I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel about this. It was dinner time by the time I had enough energy to even move. I managed to change my clothes and take a shower but no matter how long I stayed under the water, it never made me feel better. 

I finished getting ready and threw on Hope's hoodie, closing the door behind me. I pulled the hoodie over my head and made my way to dinner. It was buzzing down there. Everyone was involved in some kind of conversation with each other. I ignored the looks and stares from my peers as I grabbed my dinner, taking it with me to the dock. That seemed to be the one place I felt any form of peace. I had just stepped onto the dock when I realized I wasn't alone. I could tell from the hair who it was. Hope. 

"I can leave if you want me to. I just wanted to see the sunset again but if it'll make you happier, I'll go." She said, her voice raspy like she hadn't been talking for days. I didn't know what to say so I just sat down in my spot and let her do whatever she was doing. The silence filled the words I couldn't say. She did look good tho, stronger and a little paler than normal. She seemed to be different and I don't know how. "I'm serious Lizzie. If this is uncomfortable for you then I'll go. Just say the words." She said again. This time, she seemed to be pleading. 

"You're fine Hope. I don't care that you're here." I spatted at her. She nodded her head in almost a shameful manner. I knew that was mean but I couldn't help it. The silence once again fell between us as I ate and Hope watched the sky change colors. Honestly, ever since she brought me here on the first night we actually hang out on our own, I come out here ever night to watch it. I haven't missed one yet and I don't plan on missing it.