We'll Be Fine

Chapter Nineteen: Love In The Dark

Hope's POV:

So good news is that I'm now a student at the Salvatore school again, thanks to Caroline. She put me back on the roosters behind Alaric's back and reenrolled me in my class. Everyone seemed happy I was back except one person, Lizzie. She's been avoiding me for the last two days. Not gonna lie but that hurts a lot. I've tried calling her and texting her. I even showed up at her room with Josie but all I got was Josie. I just want to talk to her but I guess she doesn't want to talk to me. It was slowly starting to drive me insane. I just want to know what I did for her to just leave. I mean she literally moved her stuff out of my room and back into Josie's with Jade. I was alone again. 

I got out of bed and got ready for my classes. I only had like four cause the other three I don't need or I already did them. They were all morning classes, and I had a three with Jo, one with both Jade and Rafeal so I was able to keep myself distracted long enough to not wanna jump off the roof. First period was easy and quick. Second dragged on forever and the last two flew by like nothing. Josie had invited me to have lunch with her and Jade which I tried saying no to but they wouldn't accept that so I was now playing with my food and looking around. I happened to look right across the dining hall and there she was walking towards her dad's office. I got up and jogged to catch her. "Lizzie." I said as I caught up to her but she walked faster so I vamp sped in front of her and stopped. She ran right into me and I caught her before she fell. She looked into my eyes but there was something wrong. There was no love, no happiness or excitement to see me. She pushed out of my arms and went to walked past me but I stopped her.

"Woah wait. I wanted to talk to you." I said and she rolled her eyes. Wow. So maybe I did do something. "I don't have time for this right now Hope. I need to go." She said as she tried again to push me out of the way. "No. Why are you avoiding me? You literally packed your shit and moved out in the middle of the night. Do you know how that felt to wake up and see that you were gone? Did I do something wrong? Why won't you talk to me?" I asked her rapidly. I was getting a little at the fact that she didn't seem to care that this is bothering me. "Get out of my way Hope. I have to go. I don't have time for your stupid emotional needs right now." She said and shoved me hard causing me to move. "My emotional needs? My emotional needs?!" I yelled as she walked away. She never even looked back once and I felt like I could throw up. 

After Lizzie literally walked away from me, I left the buildings and went to the docks where I sat for a little while. I watched the sky as I thought about what Lizzie said and it still didn't make any sense to me. I eventually got tired of not getting any answers and went to find her again. I went straight to her room and let myself in. She was sitting on her bed and I closed the door. She turned around, getting up and looking right at me. "What are you doing here?" She asked almost annoyed by my presence. "I'm trying to talk to my girlfriend who has been ignoring me for two days and blew me off this morning." I said causing her to roll her eyes. What is her problem? "Hope just leave. Please. I can't do this with you right now." She said almost too quiet for me to hear but I did. My heart was racing a million miles an hour as she wouldn't look at me. 

"No. No! Lizzie what the hell? Why won't you talk to me and why did you leave in the middle of the night?" I asked. She looked anywhere but me before looking dead into my eyes. "I think we should break up Hope..." She said with no hesitation. My heart dropped and the door opened. "W-what? Break up? Why?" I asked not understanding. I could feel my heart shattering as the tears filled my eyes. "I don't want to be with you anymore... it's too much.. you are too much for me.. I can't love you in the dark Hope.. I think it's best to end this now before we can't recover.." She said not looking at me. "Look at me and tell me that. Tell me you can't love me and I'll go if that's what you really what you want me to do." I said, not fully wanting it to be true but the moment she looked into my eyes. I knew she meant it. "I can't love you Hope. I want you to leave now. Here. This is yours.." She said handing me my necklace back before turning her back to me. I couldn't stop the sob that raked through my body as I held the necklace to my chest. My heart hurt. My chest hurt and I felt like I couldn't breathe. She really meant it. "Hope..." I heard Josie say as I just walked away crying. I needed to go.