We'll Be Fine

Chapter Twenty: Traitor

Lizzie's POV:

The next morning came and I woke up with a splitting headache. I slowly sat up and looked around when I realized I have no idea where I was. I mean that was until I looked next to me and saw exactly who it was. Fuck my literal life. I noticed that he was naked and that I was in fact naked too and that's all that I needed to know before the memories of last night hit me like a million buckets of ice that sobered me up quicker than anything. I seen what time it was and got out of his bed, putting my clothes back on and leaving quietly. I couldn't believe myself. I didn't even want to see my own reflection and I felt sick to my stomach at the thought of him touching me instead of Hope. God, I forgot about her last night. I didn't even think of her once during the whole thing. This was the first time since before I got drunk that she even crossed my mind. 

I made it back to my room and I took a long, hot shower until I felt clean enough to not want to rip my own skin off. I hate this. I hate myself, I hate my father, I hate last night and I hate the night I broke Hope's heart. This was the last day that Josie and them would be gone and tomorrow Hope would be here. I can't face her. I don't think I'll ever be able to face her. I just wanted to die and that put everything in prospective. I have never in my entire life wanted to die more than I do now. I wanted to scream and cry and just break everything but I realized that wasn't going to bring her back. I found my phone from last night and I checked to see Josie had called and that Hope tried to call me back twice. In that very moment, I threw up everywhere. 

Once I got over the throwing up and wanting to cut my own heart out, I called Josie back, but she didn't answer. I still had a pounding headache, so I laid down and closed my eyes. There was nothing left for me to do but sleep, so I did just that. I did eventually woke up later on that night when Josie and Jade came storming in the room. I didn't even greet them. I fell back asleep shortly after they got into bed. I silently cried as I held the only thing I had left of Hope, her hoodie. Her smell was still on it and it only made my heart hurt worse, but I felt like torturing myself a little especially after I did what I did. I was not prepared for what would happen tomorrow. 

Hope's POV:

Last night was probably the first night that I had actually felt a little better. My family, Jade and Josie all raced across the country and just let loose which I needed. Me and Kol even play fought like we used to when I was a kid. The excitement faded by the time I laid down to sleep. I had left my phone in the room while we were out because I didn't think anyone would bother to call me anyways. I had no one really left to talk to now that Lizzie was done with me. I had just decided to check it in case Caroline texted me or someone else from school called. I checked my call log and I almost threw up when I seen Lizzie had called me. I stared at it for a few minutes debating on rather I should call her back or not. I figured it was important so I called back twice with no answer. I realized I had a voicemail from her and I listened to it.

"H-h-hey Hope.. um.. I don't really know why I'm calling you but I really need you right now.. I stole a bottle of this whiskey my dad drinks and I chugged half of it.. I can't stop thinking about you and all of the time we spent together.. I didn't mean what I said that night.. and I know there isn't any way for me to take it back now but my dad got inside my head and I became a coward.. I'm so sorry Hope.. I really am.. I still love you.. I never stopped.. I should probably go now because you didn't answer so I'm going to assume you're busy or.. with someone else.. I- ok. Goodnight Hope.. I love you.." She said slurring almost every word. I cried that night. I mean I cried so hard that I couldn't breathe. Kol, Rebekah and Freya had to actually put me to sleep so I would calm down. 

I woke up this morning in my own bed with pajamas on. I'm guessing my aunts took care of me and Kol made sure I got here safe. They left a note explaining why there's a huge gap between last night and now. I texted them in the groupchat thank you and I was fine now, that they didn't have to worry about me which was a lie but they don't need to know that. I decided that I was going to work out this morning with the wolves since I knew they would be in the gym. I quickly got changed and went on my way there.