Monét
I took a shower and got ready for school, I wore a simple outfit, a skater girl skirt and a cute tank top, I didn't do my make up I was too lazy.
I grabbed an apple to eat on my way , my phone screen lit up and Tay's name appeared, "I'm outside"
I didn't know she was fetching me today, you can never know with Tay.
I grabbed my stuff from the bed and raced down, I locked and I saw Tay's black merc waiting for me outside, "Don't you look cute today", she complimented me while tucking her lip ring between her teeth.
Stop, that was so hot.
"Why thank you, you look good too",she wore black pants and a white animated oversized T-shirt with chains and rings.
Everyone knew she was the most wanted girl, every time we'd go to school, girls would throw themselves at her, boys still wanted her even if she made it clear that she is strictly lesbian.
Man it was crazy, but she really paid no attention to them, we drove to school, sweater weather by The Neighborhood played.
This song was exactly how it felt to be free, I don't remember the last time I felt completely carefree without the help of weed.
We reached the gates of the school, I had to go to my first lecture, kind of forgot I'll be with Tay the whole time till we headed home.
We attended the same classes, it still shocks me why she was still studying to be doctor, she told me her dad forced her to, she wants to be a painter, she is an artist, I have her works in my room , she is really talented, her dad fails to see her talent and that is what she really wants.
If it was me, I'd simply skip, why would I study something that I didn't like and completely failed but I wasn't her.
Everyone here kind of minded their own business, in and out of lectures, we had the nerds who would spend the rest of their day in the library, we had the slay queens who only cared about their appearance, we had those kids who came to school looking sleep deprived , they definitely didn't care at all, we had those kids who would skip just to smoke, and we had those one who came to school but didn't know for what.
I was at school but didn't know why I was, I had reason to be here when my dad was alive, it was my dream, now I don't think I really have a dream.
I'm just here to fill empty space on earth, my existence doesn't really matter as much, it's just useless.
"Monét Mills, are you paying attention", the old man asked.
"Yes", I simply replied.
"You better be", he told me and I nodded, who cares if I'm paying attention or not, I needed a smoke.
If this lecture doesn't come to an end , I'm going to lose my shit.
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School really wasn't what I needed now, I needed to be at home with my weed doing absolutely nothing, stressing about telling Tay or not, feeling sorry for myself, drowning in my sadness, deciding how I really wanted to leave earth, it was much better than school.
"Let's go home I can see you are not yourself", Tay said walking beside me.
"Okay", I simply said.
We walked to her car, this time we drove to her house, her mom and dad were not home, she had no other siblings, it was just her , "You know where my room is, I'll join you in a sec", I nodded and went to her room.
Her house was as big as mine, but I could easily get lost, unlike her she knew my house better than l did, when I came here the only place I knew was her room and the living room.
Her dad loves me like his own, he offered me to come live with them because he noticed I'm always alone at home but I declined , I really didn't want to bother people, and be an extra burden.
They didn't need that.
Tay's room was cute, it was blue and white , she had some of her art pieces stuck on her wall, she had a painting of her sister beside her bed, I could see the emotion in the painting, it was beautiful.
My favorite colour is blue, Tay also likes blue , it was rare to find a bestie who liked the same things as you did.
"Hey babe I'm back, I brought snacks", Tay placed the snacks on the bed beside me.
I smiled at her, "Thank you"
"Aren't you sitting with me?", I asked her.
"Actually I wanted to make a painting of you, do you mind? We can go to my studio", she told me.
She wanted to make a painting of me, I don't mind actually I'd love to see it, she was talented there was no denying it, "Sure let's go", she smiled and pulled my hand, we actually ran.
She was so excited, "Is that comfortable? I need you to position yourself like this", she positioned my waist so that it's at a different angle, my chest was pulled forward, I sat on a stool and I had to sit for hours on it.
Every touch, I felt tingles, her touch was everything, she was teasing me and she didn't know it, each time she'd take a glance at me while painting, she is sexy when she was focused, and the amount of times she tucked her lip ring between her teeth almost made me want to kiss her.
"You did good baby I'm proud of you, I'll take you home and we'll finish it next time", she told me while she cleaned up.
I am so tired, it was late already, and did I really want to go home, "Can l stay here for the night I'm really exhausted", she nodded, "Cool no problem"
"I'll just go take a bath", I told her as l left her studio.
"I also need to bath", she told me, "Want us to shower together", I playfully asked her and she smirked.
"Actually I do let's go", she replied and I laughed, "I'm joking silly", I said.
She rolled her eyes, "I was down for whatever", she replied and it was my turn to roll my eyes and I left to take her bath.
-xoxo.
