Monét
Do you know the feeling you get when you catch a glimpse of a beautiful sunset, then get mesmerized by the beauty of how the colours are coordinated and you just want to take a thousand pictures because they last longer that's how I felt everytime I was with her.
"Monét?", I was in dreamland I felt a hand shaking me to snap out of it , "Monét !!!"
I was alert with my surroundings, reality kicking in that I was in class and I completely zoned out, "You did your thing again", Taylor told me with a smile and her gorgeous face.
How could someone be so perfect.
"What thing?", I asked rolling my eyes.
I knew rolling my eyes at her made her mad but I did anyway, "You freeze completely like a statue when you zone out", oh yeah I never thought I did, I always thought I looked normal.
Of course she'd know everything about me and how I act.
We became super close to being besties in matter of 2 years, you'd swear we were sisters by how close we are, some people think we are dating or related, that's how close we are.
I really didn't have much friends, we met in a library, I am a book worm , shy , quiet girl but nobody ever wanted to find out who I really was, not the act I put out for people to see.
But she came along, became my friend I remember one day I was having a bad day , she pulled my hand and said , "let's go somewhere fun for the rest of the day I'll tell you my name later", that time I was so confused like how could you even do that to someone you don't even know but went along with it because I had nothing to do after class probably go home and cry myself to sleep.
That day I realized how I never payed attention to people at my school, how come I've never noticed her before?, how did I not know she was attending every class l attended, how close we live, just the same way no one ever notices me.
How could I have not seen her, she was beautiful with her chocolate skin, perfectly shaped lips, and green eyes, I noticed she had a tattoos too, lots of them anyone could see them, she had a lip piercing too, and a undercut, man how could l have not noticed her before?
We spoke about everything that day I surprised myself with I opened up to a complete stranger, felt like home when I was her , those few hours felt like complete heaven, I realized how much of a sweet girl she really was, and how was just like me, we liked the same things literally everything, which made me feel happy to have found someone to talk to.
She was the outspoken one in public, I never spoke at all, but as time went by we became super close, doing sleepovers, going out , doing everything together , she discovered that I was really a person you'd never get bored around, I feel like when she chose me to be her friend she was like "uh sad? Tick, has trauma? Tick , has anxiety? Tick, funny? Tick", while she was exactly the same as me, but managed to pull herself together and pretend to be happy, while she knew she was fighting her own demons.
Which made me want to keep her , and help her because helping her would make me feel better about my own pathetic life, " well yeah I was thinking of something", I told her , she raised her brows as an indication to tell her what l was thinking of.
Never gon happen.
The lecture was over and it was time to go home and sleep, I was tired, emotionally, mentally I was losing focus and at some point I just wanted to drown in my high.
She grabbed my bag for me and we headed to my car, she took my car keys and drove us to our favorite coffee shop, "I know you're not okay , what's wrong?", She spoke as her soft voice reached my ears , "It's nothing I'm fine", l lied.
She smiled, did l tell you she had the most beautiful smile ever, "you are lying to me, remember I told you that you can tell me anything right?", I nodded.
"Good, so what's up?", she asked, just lie for now , "I'm just sad that's all", she sighed , "Okay we'll grab coffee and go to your house and watch a movie is that okay?", I smiled.
"Yes thank you", she smiled back, "anything for you", she told me.
She was super sweet , she knew how to make me feel better all the time , I guess that's one of the reasons I fell for her , actually I'm still falling and she's not catching me but that's okay.
She forced me to not the leave the car when we arrived at the coffee shop, because she's afraid I'll fall while waiting for the coffee, I'm just sad not sick, I mentally rolled my eyes, I watched her through the window, I saw a cute guy watch her completely astonished by her, I noticed how everyone would turn heads just to look at her , I wouldn't blame them she is beautiful, after ten minutes she was out of the coffeeshop with our iced coffee , "Here you go"
"Thank you", I take a sip , enjoying my coffee, "See that guy over?" I pointed , "He is completely mesmerized by you", I tell her playfully raising my brows, she scrunched her nose disgustingly, "Well ew"
I rolled my eyes, "I think it's time you get some dick honestly", I told her, holding my laugh in, "Monét I'm fully, completely, strictly lesbian just imagine me being intimate with a male l can't let alone touch a men", she said and I laughed at how her face looked when she said that.
"But you can try", I said, "Ewww never , let me drive I can see this coffee is driving you crazy", I just laughed.
We drove in silence, comfortable silence, with soft music playing, today was beautiful the sun was setting , tomorrow was the weekend, meaning I could sleep all day if somebody would ask me what my hobby was , I'd definitely say sleeping is my hobby.
We pulled in the driveway, I grabbed our stuff and got in, "I'll be in my room , I'll be down in a sec", I told her , "sure", she replied.
Throwing my body on my bed and sighing, I have to get my shit together and not mess today up, no nonsense today no nonsense today, I repeated to myself.
Lord knows how many times I attempted to tell her how I felt but I didn't.
I slipped out of my Jordan's and wore my huge comfy slippers and headed downstairs.
She looked at me as I stepped down the stairs, "Wow I thought you were sleeping I was about to scream at you, I got all the snacks and picked a movie because your dumb ass is indecisive", I rolled my eyes at that , she was right I am indecisive.
"Where's everyone?", she asked, my mom was out on a business vacation, my older brother was God knows where, but he was there for me when I needed him, "Well you know Dominic , Mom is on a business vacation, I'm home alone", I tell her and she nods.
"okay let's watch the movie , come here", I place my body next to hers and she pulls me close to her , the movie plays and I'm happy, I'm not stressed or anything just at peace.
-xoxo.
