SEDATEPHOBIA | Dream

III

"Try to touch the past. Try to deal with the past. It's not real. It's just a dream." – Ted Bundy

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*Eleanor's POV*

I still remember the tremble in my knees and the sick feeling in my stomach when I waited in front of Alfred's office. There was no going back after I've entered that room.

Letting out one last shaky exhale, I pushed the door open after the clock struck 2pm.

"Well, well, what did our dear Eleanor decide, hm?",
Alfred asked me with a smug expression, as if he already knew my answer.

"I accept the deal. Experiment all you want on me, but let my family stay.",
I accepted the offer with the most steady voice I could muster up.

"Sweet."

"I want you to come to my office every day at 8pm sharp. Be late and watch your family suffer. You can go now."

I could feel my heart thumping as tears burned in my eyes.

I was scared.

My body started to tremble the moment I stepped out of the dreaded room again. Letting out a shaky exhale, I shuddered at a particular thought.

It felt like I just made a deal with the devil...

I didn't know where to go, but I knew that I had to get away from this door as far away as possible at the momet.

My feet had a mind of their own as I walked through various types of doors and corridors.

Where should I go?

It only had been about one to two days since the voice was gone. It felt weird and I felt helpless, like I couldn't decide anything by myself anymore.

I don't know when I started to hear the voice or whose words always rung in my mind, I just knew that it was usually always there and that it surely wasn't my voice or thougths. At some point, I had gotten so used to it, that I never actually questioned it.

Is it even normal that I can hear a voice?

I shook my head, trying to clear my mind and opened the next door in reach, only to be blinded by rays of sun.

Naturally, I raised my left hand to shield my eyes before I grunted in distaste. After a while, I finally adjusted to the brightness before I lowered my hand.

The sight was breath-taking.

I arrived just in time to witness the sunset as layers and hues of pink, red and gold tinted the skies. Almost immediately, my heartbeat calmed down and peace took over my mind as I looked at the beautiful view in front of me.

Sitting down on a bench, I closed my eyes again to enjoy the warm sun prickling at my skin, breathing in deeply-

Big mistake.

I coughed my lungs out as the foul stench of rotten flesh and blood wafted through the air. I covered my nose quickly as tears prickled at my eyes from the experience I just made.

I almost forgot about the fact that this city was filled with human-flesh-eating-monsters whose black and slimy skin smelled enough to make the air almost unbreathable.

I swiftly scrambled back inside, quickly taking in the less-smelly air to get rid of the nauseous feeling.  Anger started to slowly take over my senses as I kicked the wall harshly. A cry of pain left my mouth the moment my feet came in contact with the solid wall before I fell onto my butt.

Tears of frustation covered my eyes.

I was fed up with everything.

Everything that has happened slowly dawned upon me, making me feel like I couldn't handle it anymore and making me want to jump from the nearest rooftop.

It was all too much.

A whimper left my mouth before I sat up against the wall, silently crying into my hands.

I'm such a disapointment.

Hiccups made it hard to breathe as my head felt like it might explode any moment.

A warm body placed itself onto my right before a big hand hesitantly placed itself on my shoulder, making me slightly tense up. My sobs stopped before I held my breathe.

Please don't be Alfred.

Please don't b-

"Whatever is going on in your head right now, it's gonna be alright, believe me Eleanor."

It definetly also wasn't Dream nor Nick.

I slowly raised my head to look at the person, only to be surprised by the sight of-

What was his name again?

I think it was Techno.

"Wh-What do you mean?"

Techno smiled sadly before he tilted his head down to look at my small figure next to him.
He flashed me a sad smile before looking back up again, leaning his head against the cold wall before sighing.

"I used to- still actually- hear voices."

Voices?

Like mine?

My brows furrowed in confusion as I was about to question him, only to be interrupted by him continuing his story.

"I did very terrible things. Unforgiveable deeds. I had become something you could call a moster."

"Day and night, I would be haunted by the voices whispering poisonous words, making me remember screams of people I used to love."

I could see him eyes gloss over before he sniffled looking back at me.

"That was until I met Tommy, Tubbo, Phil and your brother."

"You knew Wilbur from before this started?"

"Yes, we actually used to talk every day. Those three pulled me out from whatever deep and dark ditch I had fallen in. They saved my soul."

"It might be hard to, but believe me when I tell you this."

"Pain is temporary."

"But joy can last a lifetime, so try to find things that make you happy in everything and everyone you see."

"It's worth it."

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Tbc

My girl is having mood swings at it's finest. 
I'm sorry for typos and bad grammar :( I'm sooo thankful to everyone who's still reading this ♥♥

GUESS WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS TODAY?????

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Until next time my lovely PoTAEtoes :)♥

16.01.2022