Stone's Diary: Kairo

Chapter 72.) Where I Wanna Be pt. 1

"No hanging with Kelly today?" Renae asked Kairo as she joined him in the living room. It was February the 10th, six days since Dajon's birthday, and a week since Kairo found himself trying to figure out what he wanted to do with his life.

"Nah..." his eyes lingered on the tv for a moment before he glanced at her, "She wanted to add another language to her portfolio so she could have a better chance at getting into the nursing program... some Japanese course."

"Hmm," Renae sat beside him and smirked, "Are you upset about that or are you just bored without her?"

Kairo shrugged, "You know... before I even thought about dating her or liking her tha' way I do now... I was always on tha' go. If I wasn't by myself, I was with Zay or doing other activities," he mumbled the last part and Renae chuckled.

"It sounds to me as if you lost a bit of yourself once you got into the relationship with Kelly."

"It ain't even like dat, Dukes..."

"I know," she spoke up, "I'm not trying to blame Kelly, but it seems as if you were so focused on making sure the relationship you were building with her kind of steered you from things that used to keep you busy. Since when do you sit in here and watch Curious George?"

Kairo chuckled, "I've been a little confused about my life... tha' twins were still able to do things dat they loved while dating and traveling... Ava's dating now and she still runs her boutique, does tha' nursing sh- stuff, and finds time to kick it with us... I 'ont know Dukes... I just feel like I'm tha' odd one out or something. I'm sitting on money but don't know what tha' heck to do with it."

Scooting toward him, Renae poked his cheek and smiled when he laughed, "You just turned twenty, you graduated college last year, despite the crazy stuff thrown your way. Your path is never and will never be the same as those around you or those that you look up to. We are all here for different purposes, no path is created or ordered the same because that is not what or how God intended. You understand?"

"What am I supposed to do then?" he stared at her hopelessly, "I have no idea what I want to do with my degree and I can't even figure out what will keep me on my toes."

"You went for business with a minor in marketing, your father has plenty of businesses that any of you can take over, it's all up to what you like, Kai."

Kairo sighed, "That's tha' thing... I'm confused," he admitted.

"How would you feel about working alongside Lucky?"

Confused, Kairo stared at her suspiciously, "What you talkin' bout?"

"Your father wants to start building on the land by the spring, why don't you ask him, if you can work with Lucky? You can use that as an excuse to get better acquainted with him."

"I 'ont know..." he paused, "He ain't feeling me like dat and I ain't tryna force him to like me."

Renae smirked, "Lucky is... different," she paused momentarily, "Think of me with social anxiety times four-thousand... except with Lucky, his tolerance for people or conversation is extremely low."

"He sure ain't mind talking to you at tha' party."

Renae laughed, "Truth be told, Kai... he and I are the same and I honestly think that's the only reason he's ok with talking to me."