professor stan

chapter 17 {not what it looks like}

You walked back onto campus, it was strangely silent. That was probably because everyone left for the holidays. You walk to your dorm room and throw the door behind you shut. You felt stupid, stupid for thinking you were the only one in his life, stupid for feeling sad about it while you weren't even official yet so why were you so hurt. You put your guitar away, all the happiness from the first gig you had vanished and been replaced by what you only can assume is a broken heart, and shit it hurt more than you ever imagined. You just laid down in your bed crying your eyes out.

You were interrupted by a knock on the door, you just acted like you weren't there but the person kept knocking. So you walked up to the door and opened it seeing Sebastian stand in front of you. "What are you doing here" you said dragging him into your room, closing the door behind you "you can't be here, people can't see you are here" you say more concerned about him now than your feelings, which now came crashing through you again. "i don't fucking care about them okay" he said and you could now see the hurt in his eyes. You sat down on your bed, he sat down in front of you, both being silent for a minute until he finally spoke. "i planed it for you" he said softly, "i thought we could have a romantic dinner date night. And then you said you couldn't come and then charlotte knocked on the door and let herself in" he explained. "So you thought i'll just do this date with her then?" you say hurt. "No, no that was never my intension, she let herself in and you know she just thought it would be a waste of food and you know she stayed" he said "nothing happened y/n i swear". "Even if i wouldn't have interrupted" you ask him dreading the answer. "No, nothing would have happened" he said as he placed his hand on yours "and i know now how stupid it was to let her in, i should have just send her away" he said looking down at your hands now.

"Were you two, you know ever together?" you ask him, realizing you just assumed they dated from what Kayla told you, not from him ever telling you. "No not really, we were more like each other's rebounds, like when one of us felt shitty we would call each other and just, you know" "fuck" you added for him and Sebastian nodded. "Oh" you said more hurt by the answer than you thought. "But i'm done with her, I'm really, really sorry y/n. i was just a bit hurt by you canceling, which you probably had a good reason for and charlotte is also very pushy and knows how to get her way and i just let her. I'm so so sorry" he said as his eyes began to water. "I forgive you" you say as you start to play with his fingers. "i guess i was just a bit jealous and i should have just asked you what was going on and listen to you. i just thought i wasn't the only one in your life and i just" you said not knowing how to end that sentence. Sebastian lifted your head up "i promise you, you're the only one in my life y/n" he said looking deep into your eyes making a small smile appear on your lips and you hugged him tightly. He returned the hug embracing you.

"I have a job now" you say softly. "What, where" Sebastian asked as he let go of you and looked at you a proud expression on his face. "At a bar, as entertainer. i played there tonight and they loved it so much i can come in 4 evenings a week" you said smiling at him. "No way! I'm so proud of you" he said as he cupped your face making you blush. "You are amazing" he says before he kisses you deeply. "Oh my god can i watch, you know the next time you have to perform?" he asked excitedly as he let go of you. "Yeah of course you can" you said loving that he was so happy for you. "i can also play something for you now" you say looking at the guitar in the corner of the room. "i would love that" he said smiling at you.

You grabbed the guitar and started singing 'can't help falling in love'. You were too scared to look at Sebastian as you were playing. When you were done you looked up at him. "Wow that was so beautiful" he said "you are beautiful". You blushed at his compliments "thanks" you say softly. "God the things you do to me y/n" he said sighing as if it pained him. You moved over to him and kissed him deeply, you took full control this time as you kissed him and he let you. This man was amazing, so sweet yet he also got you out of your comfort zone a bit which terrified you and at the same time was super exiting. You push him into the bed so he was laying and you sat on top of him. He grinned at you as you let go to breath for a moment. "God you're so sexy" he said before your lips were on his again.

After a short make out session you lay down next to him, cuddling up together. "i really like you seb" you said as you started to doze off, tired after today. "i really like you too y/n" he said back as he placed a soft kiss on your forehead. "Hey i was thinking" he began "what are you doing for the holidays?" he asked. "Nothing just celebrating by myself, here" you told him. "Would you like to spend Christmas with me and my mom" he said. You thought for a moment, this was a big deal to you. "y/n?" he said getting you out of your thoughts. "yeah you know, i would really like that" you say smiling up at him he also had a big smile on his face as he heard you say yes and he kissed you passionately before the both of you fell asleep in each other's arms.