Underneath His White Coat ( Montero Series # 5)

Chapter Seven

Chapter Seven

[Rafael's POV]

"A-alam kong wala akong karapatan na magtanong. I'm sorry, nakita ko kasi iyong lalagyan ng gamot sa counter,"she whined at mas lalong napadiin ang pagkakahawak sa hita ko.

Fuck it! Does this woman even have any idea what a mistake this was? Her coming here?

"If you don't want to regret coming here, Aria. Mas pipiliin mo nalang na itikom 'yang bibig mo," I rigidly said while trying as much to hold myself from not grabbing her. My manhood was already threatening to bust out of my boxers. Her hand felt so soft and the heat that emanates from it has been setting me more on fire. "I've already told you earlier. Going after me is just a waste of time," I heaved out and quickly stood up turning against her. "Fix yourself. If you're hungry, eat." I walked to the side table where the food was and move that beside her without sparing her a look. "I'm tired Aria, wala na akong panahong ihatid ka pa so tell your driver to come pick you here," I said and walked out determined to leave pero hinuli niya ang kamay ko.

"Sandali. Okay ka lang ba? Are you going through something na hindi alam ng pamilya mo?"

"Fuck it, woman?! Hindi ka ba nakakaintindi?! Bakit ba ang tigas ng ulo mo?" marahas kong hinila ang kamay ko. I looked at her luminuscent eyes threateningly but gone was the fear in them. Right now, they were looking at mine with tenderness.

What the hell was with this woman? She wasn't even doing anything and yet ganito na ang nagiging reaksiyon ko?

"Nahihirapan ka bang matulog?" she asked softly again. "Kaya ka ba umiinom ng valium? It's a regulated drug. Someone can't just take it. It's addictive."

"Ang pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat ay pinapakialaman ang personal na buhay ko, Aria. What's going on my personal life is not anymore your business. I'm warning you, Aria. Hindi mo ako gugustuhing magalit. Call your driver now and leave bago ko pa magawa ang ayaw kong gawin sa'yo."

But the woman can't rest her case.

"Who hurt you?"she asked tenderly like she was so sure about asking it.

What the fuck was this?

This time she reached for my hand again and kneaded it tenderly, looking at me with those eyes like she was seeing right through me. I thought from what she'd obviously seen earlier ay natatakot na siya sa'kin. She was even trembling for Pete's sake. I don't understand this woman at one bit.

"I-I'm sorry...hindi na ako magtatanong. Kung gusto mo, I'll be here to help make you sleep. It's something na natutunan ko noong bata pa ako. Effective to promise," she offered and gave me an encouraging smile.

For so long, I've bed women just to keep me going. I don't even fucking care if I was still sane or not, I just need it to function like how a human being should to temporarily experience oblivion. Those women were game enough to offer themselves to me, I, telling them that I don't want any emotions involved and that I don't want any complications because I still don't trust myself. I still feel so sick of myself kahit sobrang tagal na ng nangyari. And I was trying so hard to live to show those people I love that I was doing okay. None of them knows that I'm not. That I'm still miserable as fuck!

Napalunok ako napatitig sa mga mata ni Aria. I was so fucking tired and what I needed was a peaceful sleep tonight. What she was offering was very tempting yet very ironic too.

How can I fucking sleep if all that I wanted to do was fuck her? I might be torturing myself even more.

I heaved out not really knowing what came over me para pagbigyan siya sa gusto niyang mangyari. Was I crazy?