Underneath His White Coat ( Montero Series # 5)

Chapter Thirty Nine

Happy New Year sa lahat! Sorry for the long wait. Hindi ko alam if it's the right time to post this update pero as promised I'm posting it though.

Chapter Thirty-Nine

[Rafael's POV]

"I'm s-so sorry...I'm sorry...." she whined with her weak gentle voice sobbing. Her marshmallow lips were trembling, her little luminescent eyes mirrors sorrow. Besides the relief that I felt that Aria was finally in my arms now, lalong sumikip ang dibdib ko sa nakikitang sakit sa mga mata niya. "S-sinigawan kita without confronting you...I was to blame..."

I continued to wipe her tears."Sssshhh....I'm so sorry, baby... don't talk...it's okay.... it was my fault, I got angry... ...I know that you didn't mean that...You're tired...rest now... " I said to reassure her and breathed out to ease the pain in my chest for making her feel this way. I showered her with little kisses desperate to ease her pain. Or was I doing it to ease mine?

My baby doesn't deserve to feel this way. I knew in my heart that there was no way that she would do that to me. Alam kong hindi niya ako lolokohin pero lagi akong nauunahan ng selos at galit. It was entirely my fault. I was a complete asshole for hurting a fragile and untainted soul like my baby.

I buried my lips into her head feeling that heavy squeeze in my heart. "I love you so much... I muttered as if those words were not enough. "So much..."

I sat on a bench and cradled her soft body tightly in my arms not wanting to let go. I have missed her warmth so much! No one had ever made me feel this way like I'm about to burst from feeling too much.

It's an overwhelming collection of feelings; of love, of peace, of joy, of pain...

of home.

They said that a home is not a structure but it's a feeling where your heart is, a resting solace or a sense of belongingness.

Mapadpad kaman kung saan saan, makipagsapalaran pero hinahanap hanap mo ang lugar kung saan mo nararamdaman ang kaginhawaan at kapayapaan.

Ang katiwasayan. Ang kapahingahan.

My soul had wandered in the wilderness but it finally find its rest. The peace that Aria brings me is as serene as crystal clear water and as calm as a soft wind. It was as gentle, passionate and as beautiful as her. I couldn't even explain why I had peacefully slept on that first night with only just a feel of her touch. I thought her fingers just did wonders but as I get to be with her I realized that it was more than that...

It was her very soul that makes me feel so at peace. It was her pure character that reassures my soul and makes it calm.

I heard her weak sobs while I kissed her head, continually stroking her hair, whispering love words to soothe her. We were too close but I hugged her even more closer na para bang hindi sapat na maramdaman ko lang ang init niya. I wanted more than just to hold her in my arms. I wanted to touch her, make love to her, kiss every inch of her body because I don't think I'd be able to communicate with words what I wanted her to feel. But I knew what she wanted to prove herself and I respect that.Kahit mahirap, tinitiis ko siya dahil naiintindihan ko kung anong gusto niyang patunayan sa sarili niya. There was never a time that I haven't missed her. But I amazingly love her all the more because of that. She may be soft-hearted but very strong.

A little while later, her delicate arms were still circled around mine but they became loose. Her gentle sobs were now replaced by her faint breath. Lalong bumigat ang paghinga ko. She must have been so tired for the day and the previous days.