My Only Sunshine

Chapter 16

Weeks had gone by with nothing. No contact, no pictures sent, nothing. I was getting worried and I knew Jax was too but he wouldn't talk about it. Any time I tried to get close to him in a intimate way, he pushed me away. I didn't want to let this stalker dictate my relationship but Jax seemed to be letting him. 

I was getting frustrated with Jax's behaviour towards me and I was becoming sexually frustrated as well. Right now, I was hanging out with Donna at the club house at the picnic tables while Jax and the other guys were in the garage. 

"What is going on with you lately?" Donna questioned me. 

"I'm just frustrated. Jax has been distant." I sighed, with my head in my hands as my elbows rested on the picnic table. 

"Hunny, he's been distant because he doesn't feel like he can keep you safe." Donna tried to defend him. 

"I know Donna, but I fucking need him. I can't constantly feel like someone is watching me and then on top of that have Jax pull away from me." I was getting close to crying. I stood up and began walking to the end of the lot. 

"Hadley? Where are you going?" Donna called after me. 

"On a walk, just leave me alone for a while." I yelled back at her as I turned the corner and walked down the street. I walked for an hour before making my way back to the garage. I went for the long walk and nothing happened. When I walked back in, the club was standing in a circle with Donna and Gemma. 

I began walking closer and heard, "Where the hell did she go?" Ope seemed panicked. 

"Are you talking about me?" I questioned and they all turned around to stare at me. 

"Aye lass, you scared us." Chibs looked relieved. 

"Where the hell were you?" Gemma snarled causing all of the guys to stare at her in shock. They were probably going to yell at me but she got to it first. 

"I went on a walk. I'm fine, nothing happened." Gemma smacked me up the side of my head. 

"Are you fucking stupid? You have a stalker and you decide to go on a walk through Charming by yourself?" She screamed at me. I rolled my eyes at her. 

"I'm fine." I snorted at her yelling once again. 

"You may be, but something could have happened and we would have had no idea until it was too late!" Opie began yelling at me. 

"Until my old man gives a shit, I don't give a shit." I snapped as I walked away. 

"Hadley, that's not fair!" Jax called after me. 

"Not fair?" I glared at him. "What's not fair, is having a stalker take your god damn relationship with the only person you've ever loved and stuffing it down the fucking toilet while having to worry about someone taking naked pictures of you. That's not fucking fair. It's not fair that you keep pulling away from me when I fucking need you." I screamed at him, tears threatening to fall. 

Gemma sighed and tried to comfort me but I pulled away from her. "Don't. Just fucking don't. Don't comfort me like everything is okay. Nothing is okay. I'm done fighting this shit. Whatever happens, fucking happens. And if I get assaulted, that's on me. But I'm done." I said as tears slipped and I walked into the club house to get my things. 

"Hadley, please, don't do this!" Donna cried. 

"It's done Donna." I said as I walked over to my bike and got on. I started it up and went back to my apartment. I went inside and locked the door and the deadbolt before dropping my stuff and heading to my bed. 

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I spent days wallowing. I didn't leave my apartment, but I was left alone by the stalker. Donna had left me countless messages and so had Jax but I ignored everything and everyone. I was feeling worse than I ever had and that was saying a lot. It had everything to do with a stalker having this much power over me and my relationship with Jax. I had laid in bed crying when I heard a knock on the door. I didn't even look to see who it was, I just laid there. At that moment, I had realized I had changed. I wasn't the same girl I was before. I used to be strong and now I'm crying like a bitch.

I got out of bed and took a shower. At that point, I was going to answer the phone calls and messages but I decided to just go to the shop. As I pulled in on my bike, everyone was at the picnic tables, they just stared at me as I walked over. "Take a fucking picture, it'll last longer." I smirked. 

"Hadley!" Donna smiled as she hugged me. 

"Sup, fuckers?" I questioned. 

"What's going on with you, lass?" Chibs questioned. 

"I'm sick and fucking tired of being a pussy ass bitch. I punched Jacob in the jaw for that. If this stalker wants to come and get me, fine. I'll slit his fucking throat. As for anything else? I ain't crying about shit anymore. I'm done with all that pussy shit." I stated, staring right into Jax's blue eyes. "And if someone wants me, they can fucking prove it, because as of now, I'm single. I need ride or die." 

The sorrow in Jax's eyes as I said those words made me proud. Clay eyed up Jax and then eyed me up. 

"I'll show you ride or die." Was all that Jax Teller said before he stepped closer to me, he kissed me with everything he had. I knew that, but he pushed me away when I needed him, so now he gets to spend some time proving to me that he wants what I want with him. 

When he pulled away, I smirked. "A kiss ain't gonna fix this, Jackson. You prove we're ride or die and maybe we'll talk." 

I strutted into the club house to the bar where I began cleaning up the mess from the last prospect to work the bar.