My Only Sunshine

Chapter 26

The next morning, I woke up next to Jax. It was nice to be able to sleep in. I rolled over to face Jax. He was still sleeping and that was peaceful. He began to stir and I closed my eyes to pretend I was still asleep. I felt him shifting around and his fingers pushed hair out of my face and ran his fingers through my hair, which was not tangled, I don't know how. I fluttered my eyes open to make it look like I just woke up. 

As soon as my eyes opened, I looked into Jax's blue eyes. "Good morning Jax." 

"Good morning Hadley." A smile appeared on my lips and that's when Abel began crying. 

"Cockblocker." Jax mumbled and I laughed as he got up. My legs swung over the side of the bed and I pulled myself out of the bed. Jax was amazing with his son. He came back to the bedroom with Abel in his chiselled arms. Some drool almost came out of my mouth. 

"Such a cockblocker." The words came out of my mouth before I could stop them. Jax chuckled as someone knocked on the door. I checked him out one more time before making my way to the door to answer it. Twisting the door handle and pulling it open, there stood Chibs, Happy, and Opie.

"Hey guys! Come in!" A bright smile welcomed them into the house. I stepped aside for them to come in and they all walked in one by one. Jax came into the kitchen holding Abel which caused me to check him out again. 

"So Hadley, what are your plans for the day?" Happy questioned me. With an eyebrow raised, I then narrowed my eyes. 

"Why?" Happy just chuckled. 

"Your father was at the garage." Chibs said sharply. The heat rose in my face and with fists clenched, "I'm going to lose it if he doesn't leave me alone and that is saying a lot because I've already lost it." My voice came out snappy. Jax sighed, I knew he wished the guys didn't tell me because of how I change when my sick father was around or when he was brought up, but if I had found out later, the emotions would have been out of control.

"Hadley, do you want me to handle this?" Jax questioned. My eyes found his and I thought about it for a second. 

"Yes. I don't want him contacting me and I don't want him anywhere near our son." My voice shook but it needed to happen this way. "But I don't want you to get jail time Jax."

"We will handle it, until we figure it out, you may have to deal with him." Jax said tilting his head.

"I know. I'm just so sick of him running my life you know?" I said softly. "He's been running it for too long." 

Jax kissed me softly before turning to Happy and Chibs. They just nodded at him and made their way out. I had wondered what this would mean for the sperm donor in the future and I'm not sure why I cared, but for some reason I did. I stood in the kitchen for a moment staring at the Keurig coffee maker. 

Jax stepped behind me and touched my shoulder. I leaned into his hand. "What's going on?" He questioned. 

"I am feeling weird. I know he needs to go but he's my dad you know?" I said and as soon as it came out, it sounded stupid. 

"Your dad has done nothing but torture you for years Hadley." I turned to face him and nodded. 

"I know, I just wish that the dad I knew when mom was alive was still here." He nodded and hugged me with one arm while he held Abel with the other. I knew I shouldn't feel bad at all about the karma my father would receive, but here I was, feeling awful about it. A sense of dread filled my stomach and as Jax fed Abel, I knew the club was looking to tie up loose ends with the so called 'father' of mine. I felt a battle in myself and I hated every moment of it. Part of me wanted to stand up for a father that tortured me for years.