Take Me To Church

Chapter 07

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THE IMAGE OF Jonathan while licking his own lips keeps replaying on Chogel's mind. That's the reason why the lopsided smile can't erased on his lips until he go back to the kitchen after he wore his short－so, Jonathan wouldn't feel awkward seeing him fully naked.

"Is our breakfast ready, my household husband?" Even Chogel himself got shocked because of the term he used for Jonathan. Did I say.. Household husband? Maybe because it's pleasant him to see Jonathan doing chores in his kitchen like a husband.

While washing his hands, Jonathan was also stunned hearing Chogel for calling him as 'Household husband' But he didn't want to show to Chogel that he is affected by his words. So, like he didn't hear a 'household husband' thing, Jonathan dried his hands with his T-shirt before facing Chogel.

"Yes, it's ready.. P-pasensya na pinakialaman ko ang ref mo habang tulog ka. Don't worry magshi-share naman ako sa gastos."

"No need. Cooking for our breakfast is too much. You are my guess here, I am the one who should cook the breakfast for us."

Tanging ngiti lang ang isinukli ni Jonathan bago umupo kaharap si Chogel.

"Let's eat.." Anyaya niya rito. Kumunot naman ang nuo ni Chogel nang mapansin ang mga hiwang peklat ni Jonathan sa braso nang magtusok ito ng hotdog gamit ang kutsara.

"What's this?" tanong niya na hinawakan ang braso ni Jonathan habang hawak pa ng huli ang tinidor.

Since yesterday Jonathan still didn't tell Chogel the reason why he commit suicide.. That's why his mind became blank instantly, that he didn't find any word how to explain to Chogel why he had scars on his wrist. It's not because he didn't want to tell－but because he don't know how to explain. His life story was so complicated, he don't know where to start. It's has too much informations, to give justice for his own story that for sure when someone will listen to him will just end confused.

"Oh, okay－I-i.. I understand," Chogel dismissed the unexpected topic for thier morning conversation.

Pero para kay Jonathan ay hindi iyon 'okay'. Sa loob ng labing apat na oras na kasama niya si Chogel ay nakita niya kung gaano katotoo ang pagmamalasakit nito sa kanya, kahit minsan lang sila nagkakilala.. Sa palagay niya ay desserve naman ni Chogel na marinig nito ang kahit na kaunting bahagi lamang ng kwento tungkol sa nakaraan niya.

"I-i have depression.." pag amin niya. Ang mga peklat na nakita ni Chogel sa braso niya ay halos tatlong taon na. Kaya hindi lang unang beses ni Jonathan na magtangkang magpakamatay gaya nang nasaksihan ni Chogel kahapon. He tried to kill himself many times through different suicide methods.. but he failed.

First try, he tried to slit his wrist. But no matter how deep the cut he make, the bleeding was always stop from flowing. And it's not just one, but countless times na hindi lang sa braso kundi sa iba pang bahagi ng kanyang katawan na pwedeng takpan ng tela. That's why he had those scars on his wrist. Second attemp was he tried to overdose himself. That time he still didn't have a maintenance to take, that's why he can only afford to buy is paracetamol in drugstore, because he don't have a doctor's permission to buy more dangerous medicine that would surely kill him once he overdose. Third is when he tried to jump in LRT station. But one of the passenger manage to pull him back before his foot would touch the riles. Because of that incident, he is now banned for six years in all LRT and MRT stations. And the last one is he bought the rope that he'll used to hung himself. But unfortunately, his devil but acting like an angel cousin found out about his plan that night. She told to his dad that he bought a rope and what they did is they throw it somewhere..