Jaxon’s P.O.V.
For the most part I was always a happy person, and now with Rowan I was always happy, except when I wasn’t. When I wasn’t happy I would become extremely depressed and all I could think about was these horrible thoughts. Sometimes I could hold myself back but days like today, I couldn’t resist the urge. I had woken up extremely happy but as soon as Rowan left I just drank. I didn’t stop drinking and with my apartment as quiet as it was my thoughts took over. It didn’t help that I had been drinking either.
I had only cut a few lines down my skin but they were deep. Not deep enough to kill me but just deep enough for the blood to run down my arms constantly.
“I need to get you to the hospital, Jax. Come on.” Rowan said pulling on my hand.
I followed her out the door and got into her car.
“Here hold this on your arm to slow the bleeding Jaxon.” She said pulling off her sweater.
“I’m sorry baby.” I said to her before blacking out.
***
Heaven was different for me then the movies. My heaven had always included everything and everyone I loved and I think that’s how I wanted it to be when I died. I felt a sting on my chest but before that I heard her cry. This wasn’t the end for me. Another sting and my chest rose. They must have been using the defibrillator on me.
“Rowan.” I sighed out before I blacked out again.
***
I woke up with the sun in my eyes and Rowan sleeping by my bedside in a chair that looked so uncomfortable.
“Rowan.” I whispered a couple times as I ran my thumb across the top of her hand.
She stirred and her beautiful hazel eyes opened to meet mine.
“Hey Baby.” I said with a short smile.
Tears instantly welled up in her eyes. She got out of the chair as I scooted over for her to join me in the hospital bed. I wrapped my arms around her and tried to calm her down.
“Jaxon I’m sorry.” She cried into my shoulder.
“It’s okay Ro. I’m okay baby. I’m safe.” I said kissing her forehead.
She shook her hand and looked up with sadness in her eyes.
“I did a terrible thing Jax. It’s unforgiveable what I did. I should have never left you and I should have never done what I have. Please forgive me.” She said so fast I almost couldn’t understand her.
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Don't Fall In Love
ChickLitRowan is a pissed off teenage girl who was told at a very young age not to fall in love. Her mother and father split when she was only five and she was forced to stay with her father even though she wanted to be with her mother. Now she's bitter. Wh...
