“I want the old Alexei back. I need him back. You can’t just stop talking to me Alexei. I want to still be a part of your life I just couldn’t handle all the bullshit. You can’t shut me out though. Don’t shut me out.” I said to him holding his shoulders so he couldn’t leave.
Alexei looked away from me and I saw so much sadness in his eyes when he looked back at me. I saw his pain. He had acted so cool about us ending the night we ended what we had together but now he was like a live zombie. He had emotion and he was obviously still alive but he was sulking like a dead man. He was talking.
“Do you even understand what I’m saying to you?” I said my eyes flickering all over his face.
Still nothing. I couldn’t understand why he was acting like this. Why was he doing this? I know this wasn’t all on me. I knew it, but I was still going to talk to him. He would have to talk to me at some point.
“Please. Just talk to me Alexei.” I said shaking him a bit.
He looked at me and then away again. Come on Alexei. Talk to me. Talk to me dammit.
“Talk to me.” I said for the last time.
His eyes were cold but he opened his mouth like he was about to say something. He didn’t in the end.
“Fine. That’s perfectly fine. But when you’re ready to talk… don’t think I’m going to talk to you. I was here today. I might not be when you finally are.” I said to him before releasing his shoulders, looking him down again and walking away.
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Alexei’s P.O.V.
She was angry. I couldn’t talk to her about what happened though because it was too early for me to talk to anyone about what happened. Now I was completely alone.
Roland. Why? Why would you do that to yourself?
The night I came home, the night Rowan and I had broken up was when I found him. Panic had gone through my whole body when I found him… hanging. I tried to tell myself that it wasn’t too late but deep down inside myself I knew it was. That didn’t stop me from calling 911 though.
Now I was truly alone. My other family members lived pretty much a crossed the USA and I didn’t want to leave Orand. I didn’t want to leave Rowan to be exact. If Rowan wasn’t here I would be heading back to my other relatives.
I turned around to see her just pass the corner to get her things from her locker. I wanted to chase her down and tell her how sorry I was but I wouldn’t be able to tell her what was wrong with me.
“Fuck.” I muttered to myself before walking down the hall to my first class.
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Don't Fall In Love
ChickLitRowan is a pissed off teenage girl who was told at a very young age not to fall in love. Her mother and father split when she was only five and she was forced to stay with her father even though she wanted to be with her mother. Now she's bitter. Wh...
