Don't Fall In Love

If This is Our Goodbye...

Alexei’s P.O.V.

            I was making lunch when I heard a knock at the door. I was hoping I could avoid everyone today but I guess that wasn’t going to happen. I put the bread down on the counter and walked to my door opening it to see Rowan.

“Can I come in?”

            It was the first thing she said before just walking in.

“What are you doing here? I thought, I thought you didn’t want to see me.” I said looking at here confused.

“I saw my dad today. Inside the walls of the prison of course.” She said leaning against the wall.

            Tears welled up in her eyes but she didn’t cry.

“I came here because I wanted to talk about last night.” She said walking to the couch to sit down.

            So many memories with her were on that couch in the same spot she was sitting and I couldn’t help but join her and hang my hand over her shoulders.

“I acted completely rude and I wanted to say sorry.” She said looking at.

            Damn I just wanted to kiss her.

“No that wasn’t your fault Rowan. I know you just wanted to go home with Jaxon but I was jealous and I was horrible to you. I hope you know I didn’t mean what I said to you.”

            She looked away from me and ran a hand under her eye.

“Alexei, I’m not in love with you, and I don’t think you’re in love with me either.” She said looking back at me sadly.

“I do love you Rowan! You don’t understand, I love you so much.” I said placing my hand on her cheek.

            She let her tears fall in front of me this time and I wiped them away. She shook her head back and forth and put her hands to her face.

“I’m not in love with you, Alexei. You aren’t the person I’m going to end up with and I know it. How do you not see that?” She said standing up from the couch.

“Because I have faith that your walls will come down and I’ll be there to meet you on the other side of those walls. I’m not afraid of what we could be Rowan, I want you. I love you and I’ll wait forever if I have to.”

“I can’t do this anymore Alexei. I’m going on tour with Jaxon and I’m not looking back. I can’t look back. Please forgive me.” She said walking towards the door.

            I caught her by the arm and kissed her. Right there. Her back pressed up against the wall. It was the most heartbreaking kiss in the world. We reacted strongly together and I felt that this was right. I picked her up and her legs wrapped around my waist. I kissed a trail down from her lips to her chest making her head fall back.