mother

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it's a lot easier to love you

this

far


away

tolerance
i think it was
before

i know
you're a good person
well,
i think.
i want to believe.
i want to give you the benefit of the doubt.

you just aren't a great parent.
you did your job i guess
i came out okay
though i want to think that's my doing
parentification is the easiest way to make a functioning adult

and i'm starting to understand your love languages now
food and gifts

you ask a lot of me
and expect even more
up close
in person
that's easy to do

i had a hunch before
that distance would do our relationship good
at least for me

i never expected to fall back in love with you

with this song playing at least
i feel like you might actually be okay

maybe i might even forgive you

would it be wrong?
would it be an injustice to younger me?

maybe if i go back to you
i'll see it again
what made it feel so bad
maybe all the memories will come rushing back
breaking through this dam of distant healing

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