was going to rant about something else. distracted by how shitty and unintuitive wattpad is being to me right now.
trying to remember what i was on about.
something about my head. again, of course. some of the same old stuff i keep thinking about.
uhmm.
gods i really just wanna go full mental breakdown rn but my body will absolutely not let me. i am just not allowed. you know why.
ah, i think i remember now. it was something about how my brain body heart something wanted one thing and i said no so now we're doing a full 180.
attachment issues or something?
oh, right. so,,,
what it was is that originally i started to recognize that i knew i was going to leave and started to detach myself from everyone so that i wouldn't get.. attached lmao. but like i thought - well i reasoned to myself that it was because i didn't want to hurt them. but i think i'm realizing now that it was more on the end of also not wanting to get hurt myself because i always always always lose my friends and whatnot and it hurts every time. that's just how it is i guess. but i decided that it's a stupid reason and reaction and that i would be much better off actually having friends,,, and a social life,, even if just to watch the clock tick down to lose it all. better to have and to hurt, you know? but so i decided that and then made two (2) friends who i swear i am closer with than any of my other friendships have been. obv lacking time i actually don't know all that much about them but we're all cutesy and whatnot and I've gotten so clingy that i miss them over the three days we have apart lmao it's baaddd man. uh. but fun, yeah. thassit. <3
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Book #2
PoetryThe old one is old and cringey. So I made a new one! I'm not a freakish middle school fangirl anymore, so you can read my ideas without internally dying! Now, it's meme time. // (mostly short stories and poetry, with a lil bit of meme-y stuff (idk)...
