Poems for the Lonely

You Told Me

I was so close to trusting you.
So damn close.
But now I'm sitting here on my bed,
Remembering how everyone knew,
They knew about the things I told you,
And you only.
You told them.

I knew I shouldn't have,
I told myself it would only lead to hurt,
That you would only back stab me,
But you were so nice.
You told me that I could trust you,
You told me that you were reliable,
You told me that I shouldn't be afraid,
You told me lies after lies,
And that's not even the worst part.
After all the warning goings off in my head,
The worst part is I believed you.

And I am scared.
I wish I never met you,
And not just cuz you told everyone my darkest secrets,
The ones you swore you would never tell,
But cuz you reminded me.
You reminded me of what happiness felt like,
You reminded me of what trust felt like,
You reminded me of what safety felt like,
But you also reminded me of what betrayal feels like.
And I hate you for it.

You were the reason for my smile,
For my laugh,
For my joy,
And for all those countless nights I spent daydreaming,
About you.
About us.

You are now the reason for my frown,
For my tears,
For my sadness,
And for all of the countless night I couldn't sleep,
For the the thoughts of what we could've been,
And realizing what we've become.

I knew I shouldn't have trusted you,
You're just like everyone else.