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Natulala ako kay Tita. Hindi nag poprocess sa utak ko ang sinabi niya. What mantress? Kabit? My father's a kabit? Nino?!
Tangina naman oh.
Tears started flowing from my eyes without me knowing. Ang hirap tanggapin, hindi ito pumapasok sa isip ko.
"Mom!" Galit na sabi ni Ken kaya napalingon ako dito.
Nilingon niya rin ako at nakakita ako ng pagsisisi at sakit sa mata niya.
"What?! You can't be with her. You both can act like siblings, but not as couples! You two can't be together!" Galit na sabi ni Tita.
Hindi naman ako nakaimik at natulala lang sa kanya. Hindi ko alam ang magiging reaksyon.
Kung alin ang unang iisipin!
First of all, she thinks lowly of a person who's a child of a mantress. Kaya ayaw niyang maging kami ni Ken dahil doon! Bakit? Kasalanan ko ba na anak ako sa pagkakamali?!
Ang hirap tanggapin.
And secondly, totoo ba? Kaya ba hindi sa 'kin pinakilala ni Dad ang Mommy ko? Because she's already married to someone else?!
This can't be happening! No! I can't take this, this must be a joke! This isn't real!
Tinignan ko sila isa isa, si Tita ay galit na galit ang tingin kay Kendric, si Tito ay mukhang nagulat at hindi rin makapagsalita. Si Ken ay galit sa Mommy niya.
Napailing iling ako habang papalit palit ang tingin sa kanila bago tumalikod at tumakbo papuntang kwarto ni Ken. I even heard him call me.
I went inside and locked it. I leaned on the door but I felt my knees getting weak so I ended up sitting on the floor. My hands were on my face, shaking, covering and wiping the tears that keeps on falling.
"No," I whispered.
This isn't real! My father's a good man, I refuse to believe he'll have a relationship with someone who's already married. May paninindigan si Dad!
He's high and mighty, I don't think he'll settle for less! No, he can't settle for less! He doesn't deserve it.
Tears keeps on falling from my eyes at di ko na rin naiwasang mapahagulgol.
Di ko rin maiwasang isipin na baka totoo iyon. Kaya hindi ko kilala ang Mom ko, because my father can't show her to me. Because she's already happy with her own family, with her children.
Ang sakit namang isipin. Hindi ko naman ginustong maging anak nila pero bakit ako ang nagdudusa. Why am I the result of their mistake? And what? They can't even stand up for it especially my mom! Atleast show herself to me. Ano yon, si Dad lang may gusto kaya siya lang ang umako ng responsibilidad sa 'kin?
Nasasaktan ako, nagagalit, hindi ko ba deserve maalagaan? Maramdaman ang pagmamahal ng ina? Bakit ganon? Bakit sa 'kin nangyayari to?!
Hindi naman na ako nag hahangad ng kumpletong pamilya dahil tanggap ko ng hindi ko makikilala ang Mom ko tapos ganito? Malalaman kong anak ako sa labas? A fucking made of mistake?!
Is she that embarrassed for having me that's why she can't even show herself to me? She's so selfish. She wants to enjoy having a happy life, forgetting about me, not minding my existence because I'll only remind her of her wrong doing. Nakaka
putangina!
I cried so hard. My heart is aching so much. Hindi ko deserve ang ganito.
Hindi ko naman na hinangad na malaman pa ang tungkol sa Mom ko tapos may malalaman akong ganito?!
BINABASA MO ANG
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