Playing The Game - Book Four in The WSU Series

- Chapter Forty -

I should run, my times running out.

I know I shouldn't be here, with Kian. Especially when I'm leaving in two hours. He doesn't know? Maybe it'll be the first time he won't know everything. I wonder if he'll instantly know where I am, knowing Kian— yes. He has eyes everywhere, if he wanted to find me, he would.

Kian's grip on my heart tightens and I shouldn't have a shooting feeling of guilt in me. I've always wanted to leave, that's no secret. It was also no secret that I didn't want to marry him, yet, here I am. My wedding dress is discarded on the fall as Kian hovers over me in his white shirt, the top three buttons undone, and his black dress pants.

Would he miss me when I ran? Would he cry, or be angry? Knowing Kian, and I do, he'll be furious. Not because I left him, but because I was able to get away from him. He would be seen as weak because I managed to get away, when in truth, Kian is anything but weak. But I cannot change my plans because of past feelings, and the return of them. The feelings I had for him, that I have sworn I wouldn't get again.

His lips are on mine and everything feels right, and in reality, isn't. I'm really leaving, the girls don't know. That's what breaks me the most, I should tell them— but they'd never understand. Aria knows I need to find her before I leave. She'll understand if I asked her a favor, she'd do it too. Despite the betrayal, she'd do it for Gio.

"You're distracted," Kian mutters as his lips brush the side of my neck, god, why's this so hard? Stupid emotions, who needs them? All I've got from them is pain. I could never love someone like Kian Bliss, could I? Especially not again, not after the betrayal the first time. I'd be foolish, but as some would say, why don't we ruin it all, and love like fools? That is exactly what I intend to do, but I cannot.

I don't have the luxury to fall in love again, with Kian Bliss. Not while my father is still alive, instead of Gio. Maybe one day, I'll wake up and realize that his death wasn't on me, but it was. Both Kian and Aria argue the same, he wasn't a good man, that wasn't hidden. His death could have happened any day, but it didn't. He died at the hands of Kian Bliss, because of me. But why? Kian claims it's because I called Gio, instead of him. But that's not true, Kian knew Gio would never make a move on me.

So, why? Why did Kian lie? What could he have gained from killing Giovanni, and me knowing?

"What's in a name? that which we call a rose. By any other name would smell as sweet." Kian recites and my heart jumps, it shouldn't. My breaths are quick as Kian's one inch away from being inside me. "Romeo and Juliet," I whisper, and Kian smiles. He smiles and it's like everything in the world is fine. I wish that were the case. My phone lights up beside me and as I grab it off the bedside table, I see an unknown number. "No phones," Kian mumbles but doesn't try to snatch it away or look at it. I read the message and I wonder who on earth Aria got my number again after the past years.