Bad (A Logan Henderson/ Carlos Pena Story)

It should've been me *chapter 23*

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Bad

Logan Henderson/ Carlos Pena story

Part 23

*Lourdes' P.O.V*

"Time of death: 8:06 p.m. 57 seconds" said one of the nurses with a clipboard. NO NO NO GOD DON'T LET HIM DIE PLEASE OH FUCK PLEASE DON'T LET HIM DIE HE'S LIKE A BROTHER TO ME OH MY FUCKING GOD TAKE ME NOT HIM GOD I NEED HIM IN MY LIFE! I collapsed to the floor and started bawling my eyes out. I just didn't know what to do or who to approach. IF HE DIDN'T PUSH ME OUT OF THE WAY HE WOULDN'T BE HERE IT SHOULD'VE BEEN ME! KENDALL DON'T LEAVE ME YET PLEASE. I looked over at Logan and he had his fists on the door while looking at his feet and I swear I saw tears hitting the floor. I crawled into a ball and started crying even more. PLEASE LET A MIRACLE HAPPEN AND PLEASE LET HIS HEART KEEP BEATING. GOD I WILL DO ANYTHING JUST PLEASE DON'T TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME! THIS IS MY FUCKING FAULT. I SHOULD'VE TAKEN THAT BULLET IT SHOULD'VE BEEN ME ANYWAY. KENNY PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME! 

*Logan's P.O.V*

This cannot be happening. Please tell me this is some cruel joke or I'm dreaming. Please God. This is all my fault! I saw Lourdes collapse to the floor in tears and I felt even more guilty. 2 of her bestfriends are in the hospital because of me! This is all my fault! I slammed my fists on the door and just started crying. THIS IS ALL MY FAULT! I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON! I DESERVE TO DIE NOT HIM! WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONE WITH MY LIFE?! OH GOD KILL ME NOT KENDALL! PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU GOD DON'T MAKE KENDALL AND CARLOS PAY FOR MY MISTAKES! I AM SO SORRY KENDALL, CARLOS, LOURDES, AND JAMES! PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR MY STUPIDITY! GOD PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR MY SINS ON EARTH. I DON'T DESERVE TO BE HERE. KENDALL KEEP YOUR HEART BEATING. FOR YOUR FAMILY. FOR YOUR BAND. FOR YOUR RUSHERS. HE DIED MAD AT ME! OH GOD WHAT AM I GONNA DO?! And then it hit me. I'm too late. I fucked up big time. There's no way to turn back now. Everyone will hate me but I'll take it like a man. I have to. I deserve to die and if that's what this ends to, I'll accept it with open arms. I actually want to die. I can't deal with this guilt anymore. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE KILL ME. ANYONE.