Unexpected Perfection

27

Mason rolls his eyes when I tell him.

"Man, I didn't mean to fuck up the relationship you have with her. I just wanted somebody to make me feel special like she makes you feel."
He scowls.

"Mason, none of this is your fault."
I stress, pacing in front of the couch.

If anybody, it's Ashley.

She should have never came into the picture.

...It's my fault, I know.

I just want to kiss on my damn girlfriend.

I can't believe she had the audacity to flirt with a waiter right in front me me. I have never felt so...so disrespected. Ugh, how dare she!?

You know what? That's cool though, she's about to get a taste of her own medicine.

I know she misses me, I saw way past the amused look she had on her face.

She's been losing sleep too.

And no matter how much power over me she thinks she has, she loves me.

She loves me a lot and it's very apparent, I love that about her.

What I really want to do is lock us both in my room until we settle our differences.

I guess what I'm really mad about is that deep down I know that she's right and sooner or later I am going to have to tell Mason that his girlfriend is kind of a bitch.

A bitch that I stupidly slept with for 2 months when I was like 16, that is.

Ugh, I can't believe Ayah flirted with that stupid looking waiter.

I can't stop thinking about how she was looking at him.

God.

I need to go to bed.
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{Ayah}

It doesn't take long at all for me to acknowledge that I took it too far over the line. When I don't get a call from Theo the next day, I think nothing of it.

But when 4 more days pass by in complete silence, I start to feel a little homesick.

I really needed a hug yesterday and all I had was Theo Jr and it sucked because the bear smells just like him.

My favorite man.
Oh man, I can't stop thinking about all of the fun things we've done over the last few months.

I just want to talk to him, even if it's just for a minute.

"...Hello?"
I whisper.

"Hi. Why are you calling me?"
He asks coldly.

My heart immediately drops.

Maybe he doesn't miss me. Maybe I spent the last few days overthinking for nothing yet again.

"I um. Was calling to see if you were still alive but it doesn't sound like you want to talk to me."