𝕊𝕒𝕕 𝕤𝕠𝕝𝕓𝕪 𝕠𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕥𝕤 ♡

We were never ment for living

They shatter so gently.

Sweetly.

Whispering, "I love you," to each other as they hold the other close and fall to pieces.
Colby looks into Sam's eyes and thinks that endings can sometimes be beautiful.

It's quiet, at the end. It's only them, and the sky that holds them close.

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Colby thinks that soft things suit Sam. It feels right to find Sam huddled under blankets for movie night, or on the weekends when he can't be bothered to wake up early. It feels right when he sees him in hoodies in the early morning, pale fingers tucked into pockets. It feels right. Sam is soft in ways that he does not know how to be, and he thanks whatever higher being every day for that.

He's always been soft in Colby's mind. Always the first to come last if it meant letting others flourish, always the first to give up opportunities for the sake of spending quality time with his friends instead. Sams always been so carelessly soft, but colby loves him that way. He loves seeing the way sam fixes his hair in the morning, the way sam laughs with his hand hovering over his lips, the light that shines on sams face when he sees something new during there adventures.

It was all so Sam that it would smash through Colby's carefully cultivated walls and stoicism where no one else had been able to. Colbys not sure what he wouldn't do for Sam to be honest. And that doesn't scare him, because he knows that Sam loves like the ocean, deeply, vastly, and in ways that he might never comprehend.

Maybe that's why he despises Katrina for what she did to him. Katrina has had Sams devotion for years, his love, his admiration, and all she did was beat Sam down. She threw it aside, again, and again, taking it for granted when there is almost nothing colby would not have done to have it. It makes him bitter and spiteful of letting people get to close again. People that suck the softness out of his friend, makes them crumble and rot within themselves. Katrina's cheating wasn't what caused everything to fall, but when they did fall, and they fell hard, they never got back up.

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Colby loves the same way the Earth turns. He loves without end, constantly, steadily, inevitably. Sam feels so loved around colby, safe and protected like nothing in the world could hurt him. He feels so lucky to have met Colby.

It's overwhelming at first, and he doesn't quite believe it. Growing up bullied, Colby's love seems like a dream too good to be true. Sam doesn't think he would ever grow used to it, but he doesn't think he wants to either. It's a marvel to wake up every day and feel wonder when colby trusts him, or embraces him, or just cares enough to ask if he's okay. It's a special kind of gift to wake up and know you are so, so deeply loved.

Sams not sure how he can return the enormity of such a gift but he can try. He's been scared before about getting too attached because
of what happened in his past relationships. He knows he's hard to love sometimes, but colby acts like it's so easy, like sam being there is enough for him.

Colby comes off as quiet and cold to a lot of people, but sam knows that's just because he's been burned before, used by those who wanted more out of fame, a tool more than a person, and used by other people because of who the ranks says he is. Sam knows that colby loves the same way the sun rises and sets day after day, unobtrusively, quietly, but without end. He knows that colby is watching out for him, when they hang out together, and any time he can.

Colbys love is so easy to breathe in, to sit in and fall asleep too. It's soothing and infinite, some nebulous miracle that Sam is grateful for day after day, hour after hour.