Castellan Series 2: Honey Mae Castellan

Kabanata 34

Kabanata 34

I woke up feeling so heavy. I look at my phone immediately, checking if Eros text me.

My heart skip a bit when he did. I open the message but got dissapointed.

From: Eros Mah Beybe❤
Why'd you call. I'm busy.

Looking at his cold text. I didn't realize that I am crying now.

Nahiga ulit ako at doon umiyak sa unan ko. I keep on crying my heart out.

Eros, Baby. What is happening? What is happening to us? I can't seem no to notice that you're slowly getting away from me. I thought you're just busy.

I sigh and hugged my taehyung pillow. Because of too much crying, I fell asleep again.

I woke up when I felt hungry. I look at the clock and saw that it's now one in the afternoon.

Mabilis akong napabalikwas sa higaan at nag asikaso paalis.

I need to go to the mall to keep me sane. I need to fucking make sure that Elliot is just messing with my head.

I just wore a simple dress and sandals. I heardly run downstairs when it's now two.

"Saan ka pupunta, Ate?" Hindi ko sinagot si Harry at dire diretsong lumabas papunta sa sasakyan ko.

I drove to the mall that Elliot was talking about. I parked my car amd hurriedly walk to the entrance of the mall so I can see people who'll go inside. Pumwesto ako sa malayo para hindi ako makita.

I am looking at the entrance attentively. It's now three.

My feet is aching now waiting for someone I hope won't come.

Para kang nakahinga ng mag alas kwatro na at wala akong nakitang sign ni Eros. I was about to go now but my eyes caught someone's very familiar back. I stiffen when beside that familiar back is a girl.

The man look at the girl beside her and I got a side view of Eros. Eros is smiling so bright looking at the girl beside her.

Para akong nanlumo habang tinitignan sila. Tuloy tuloy nag si tulo ang mga luha ko. Pero kahit na parang dinudurog ang puso ko nag simulang humakbang ang paa ko para sundan sila kung saan man sila pupunta.

They go inside the men's shop. I saw the girl beside her look for a clothes for my man. I swallowed hard and continue looking at them.

Such a masochist, Honey.

I took my phone and tried to call Eros. I dialed his number and look at him from a far.

I saw how his smile faded as he look at his phone ringing.  He shifted his position and just put the phone inside his pocket and just look for a good shirt for him together with his fiancee.

Unti unti akong nadurog habang tinitignan silang masayang nag uusap. Iyak ako ng iyak habang nakatingin sa kanila. Putangina?! Sobrang sakit!

I thought he love me?! How come he's here dating with her fiancee?!

Lumabas sila doon at pumunta sa fast food chain. They're talking happily as they eat and I'm just outside looking at them miserably.

Natapos silang kumain at sinundan ko sila. Nag punta sila sa benches. I sat not far away to look at them.

Halos hindi na ako makahinga sa sobrang iyak at sakit na nararamdaman. Namamanhid na ang labi ko sa pag iyak pero wala akong pake.

Hindi ko kinaya kaya tinawagan ko si Wave. Iyak lang ako ng iyak at walang nasabi kaya mas nag panic siya. Hindi ko naintindihan ang sinabi niya at pinatay na agad ang tawag.

I put down the call still looking at them like a lifeless lady.

Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras akong nakatingin sa kaniya doon. Natulala na lang ako. I felt someone sat beside me and I saw Wave looking at me with sympathy visible in her eyes.

Para siyang naluluha na din kaya natawa ako. Niyakap niya ako pero hindi ako gumalaw at tinignan ang dalawa sa hindi kalayuan.

Eros held the woman's waist and I felt my heart clench in that. Gagong iyan! Sa sobrang sakit gusto ko na lang mapakanta ng do you get dejavu when she's with you!

Putangina talaga!

"Ang saya nilang dalawa?" I suddenly ask. She didn't answer. I know she's really curious right now. Eto pa? Eh chismosa to!

"That's her fiancee. My boyfriend look so happy with her. And I am here looking at them with broken hearts."

Hinila na niya ako paalis doon. Iyak lang ako ng iyak at nag taxi na lang kami.

I tried to call him again but he's not answering. I tried again and few more rings and he finally pick up.

"Hello, Baby?"

I tried to stifle my cries as I hear him speak. "I am breaking up with you now, Honey Castellan." He said in a formal tone.

Akala mo nakikipag negotiate lang?! Gago!

"Break? What?" I broke into crying when I heard that.

He ended the call immediately. I hugged Wave helplessly.

"Ang sakit, Wave..." I whispered at her. She hugged me tightly.

Nang makaahon na sa pag iyak ay humiwalay ako sa kaniya. "Huwag mo na muna sabihin sa iba, Wave." And walk inside our house.

I walk towards my room and cried there like a baby.

I cried myself to sleep. I can't fucking imagine Eros cheated on me. He fucking made me a mistress!

That innocent looking man I love so much cheated on me. And I still can't fucking processed it.

Agad akong nag ayos ng sarili at lumabas ng kwarto. I want to talk to Eros right now. I'm sure he is home now.

I drove towards his condo unit. But in my disappointment, he isn't home yet.

My tears slowly stream down from my eyes just by thinking that he is still with his fiancee.

Kinakain ako ng galit, lungkot at selos. I look at his whole condo unit while remembering all our memories.

Baby... Please come back to me. Please tell me it's not true. I'm just dreaming.

Napaupo ako sa sahig at umiyak na naman ng umiyak. Bumabalik sa akin ang nakita ko kanina kaya naman iyak ako ng iyak.

Nakadagdag pa ang mga memories namin na bumabalik sa akin. All our happy moments.

"Eros..." I whispered his name helplessly.

I dialed his number again. Few more rings and he pick.

"Baby... Please come back to me," I whispered, desperately.

"Hello? Who's this?" A woman's voice welcome me.

Para na naman akong dinurog sa narinig. So they're together huh? At pucha! Kaka break lang namin tapos binura na agad niya number ko? Angas naman.

"Hello?! Whoever who you are, stop bugging my fiancé. Back off bitch! Magpapakasal na kami!" She shouted angrily.

She ended the call immediately. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa narinig. The image of Eros marrying someone flased in my mind. Sorbrang dinudurog ang puso ko.

I wipe my tears and stood up. I want to go home now...

Punong puno ng luha na umuwi ako sa amin, looking like a fucking mess and so devastated.