a kiss on the wrist

Chapter 40- i love you most.

His lips were pale, his soft skin was pale, even his hair seemed pale and lifeless. In all, niall, didn't look like niall. I sat in silence as the only sound being made came from the heart monitor, beeping loudly. That was the only hope i had right now. His heart is beating, and he is alive. I would say that he was alive and well, but he clearly is not. He is not well at all. My eyes never leave him, and my hand is locked to his. My fingers never leaving his, and i myself, never leaving his side.

"Do you want to come with us to get something to eat rob?" Zayn asked, placing his hand on my shoulder.

Without turning around, or taking my eyes off of niall, i tell him no and shake my head. "Robin you have to eat, this isn't healthy, you've been sitting in that chair for two days strait and you haven't eaten anything but an apple" zayn sighed.

I was starving, but i can't leave niall, not right now. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of losing him, i can't lose him. I won't lose him, i refuse.

"I'm fine zayn, I don't want to leave," i said quietly. "Robin please listen to me" he pleads. I wipe my eyes as tears emerge and stay as i am. Zayns hands gently grip my face, turning me towards him, making my hand fall from niall's. "Zayn stop," i try to pry him off of me. "Robin, stop fighting me, i know, i know," he says, pulling me into his warm body. His arms wrap around me and in now tightly trapped in his arms.
"I can't leave zayn, i can't" i sobbed into a shoulder as he ran a hand down the back of my head soothingly.

"Robin, niall will be ok, I'm worried about you, you need to eat, you need to be strong. Please just agree to get some food, we can take it back here and eat how about that, we won't be gone but for ten minutes at the most i promise," he says.

"That's too long." I shake my head. "Robin, this is hard on everyone ok, but we are all here for each other, they are doing everything They can ok, i love you and i don't like seeing you like this, so please wipe those tears" he said, gently swiping away the moisture on my face, "and let's get something to eat" he smiled, wiping away his own tears as he stared at niall.

i stood up slowly and walked over to niall. "I'll be back soon my love," i whispered in his ear, kissing his cheek gently. "I promise" i said giving his hand a kiss and walking out of the room.

"What do you want?" Harry asked me. "Um whatever zayn is getting" i bit my lip nervously. He nodded and ordered the food. It took them fifteen minutes to get all of our food done, and after zayn and i grabbed our food, i quickly made my way back to niall's room.

When i walked in, my heart broke. He was awake, and i wasn't there. "Niall your awake," i smiled, setting my food down and rushing to his side. He smiled weakly and tried to sit up. I helped him up and placed the pillows so that way he had support . I grab his hand and kiss it. "How do you feel?" I ask.

"Um bad, very bad" he coughed. "Do you need anything, are you hungry?" Zayn questioned him. "Yes I'm very hungry," he laughed. The laugh was small and weak, but it was there, and it was beautiful.

"Here have this, it has everything. On it, so you might have to scrape things off of them, but it's just a burger" zayn smiled, handing him the burger. "Thanks mate," niall nodded. "Is there anything else i can do for you bro, " zayn smiled. Niall shook his head and gave him a firm handshake. "Thank you so much, for being here and for staying," niall thanked him.
"Just get better man, we need you, she needs you, i should let you two have some time now, I'll be back later," zayn said before patting my back and leaving.

"Niall, I've been so worried about you," i shook my head, placing my hands on my knees. "Don't be worried robin, I'm ok, I'll be ok, and pretty soon I'll be out of here, and we can go home ok," he smiled. "Niall, i don't know what to do," i closed my eyes.