Amber
How does a woman who was with the wrong man feel for the first time? With a man who didn't love her and didn't care about her innocence. She was just another cut on his already crowded belt. I will not describe it to you. I'll tell you straight. Useless. I feel nothing. And after all the years I've been through since. I have regretted so many times that I din't listen to Christina's advice at the time and did not give my hands away from Alex Mendez. Yes, I should have listened to her, but there's no need to cry over the spilled milk. I was in love, young and stupid. And I lost my gift, my virginity with the worst man. I chose the worst. And in all the years we've all been in New York, I've had as many mean as I wanted. I realized that sex is amazing. Some men were only for one night with some I was planning the future. I played with others, we had fun with others and tried everything new. They were different relationships. But in none of them did I find something that I missed and what Christina found in Denis. I did not find safety and respect in anyone. I knew love wasn't always everything. We have not always been able to fall in love with a single person and get along with him. But there was another problem with me. I needed a man with whom I would feel safe, but he would be physically attracted to me. In a relationship, I needed passion, freedom and savagery. I didn't care if it was a one-night stand or for years. Have I found such a relationship? I didn't find it. I've always come across two types of guys. I felt safe with one, but it lacked a spark. And the other one was amazing in bed, but it was an idiót or an immature child looking for a toy to throw away like a dirty rag.
What did I learn? Guys are pigs and each of them is only good for sex. What Christina and Denis had was exceptional. When I looked at Denis looking at her, I saw love and joy in his eyes. And I couldn't get enough of them. I didn't believe I'd ever meet someone like that. My first love ended in fiasco and I didn't need another fiasco. I didn't really need a man in general. I had girlfriends, but there was such an empty space in my soul ......... that they couldn't fill. I knew that when everyone got married, it would never be the same, it would never be the same again. Christina already has a little Anna. She is so beautiful and amazing. It's hard to say if I ever want kids. I can't say no. I love children. Little Anna is amazing, even though she screams like a baboon. But I do not know. Now I want to focus on my career, which is in full swing and I don't have time for any mistakes. Christina left me our publishing house and I don't want to disappoint her trust. I love my girlfriends and I definitely didn't want to disappoint them. I wanted to take our publishing house to the next level. Whatever it costs me.
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This is prologue of this book. I have written this book in Slovak too, but I want it in English too.
Dear readers!
This is my new book about Amber. I know you're certainly disappointed that Christina's book is over, but it's all over once.
I know that prologue is not interesting at all, so I will write you the first chapter. I hope you like my new book.
You don't have to read previous books to understand this, although you may miss some context.
PS: I hope to add new chapters regularly. But if not, I apologize in advance.
Yours, Barbara
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Séx or Love /English/
RomanceAmber was alway the naive girl with big dreams of her dream prince. The naive girl who ended up in bed with Alex Mendez. She didn't take advice from her friends and Christina. But now it's not the way it used to be. Amber is copletely different. She...