Thinking out loud

I'm sorry

Arriving back at home Julian was hoping that Ashley would tell him what had been wrong with her earlier but instead when he opened their front door he was met with a happier Ashley than when he had left with Rob.

Ashley wrapped her arms around her boyfriends neck and leaned up kissing his lips. Julian was taken by surprise but welcomed her kiss by dropping his bag and holding her waist, he effortlessly picked her up as she wrapped her legs around his waist.

Julian pulled back for air , resting his forehead on hers "damn babe what's gotten into you"? He asked with a smile. Ashley smiled back before giving him another quick kiss " I just wanted to show my man that I love him" she said. Julian's smile grew, he kissed her softly then he deepened it, their lips fighting for dominance. As the kiss grew hotter, Julian with Ashley still in his arms made his way up the stairs , they pulled apart and laughed as he almost tripped.

It was 8pm and Ashley laid awake in bed after her and Julian made love. A small smile graced her lips as she watched Julian sleep. "I love you Jules" she whispered kissing his forehead and running her fingers through his hair. She turned around and sighed as she felt Julian put an arm over her waist.

She watched as a family of birds landed outside the window, each eating some of the bird seed she had put out there. She silently wondered if herself and Julian would one day have a family, she tightly closed her eyes as she also thought of how she just used him.

Before Julian had gotten home she had decided that if her and Julian made love that all thoughts of Rob would disappear, but instead she had to fight away thoughts of the 6'7 tall man. She was disgusted with herself knowing that she was letting Rob affect her relationship with Julian, someone who deserved so much more than what she was giving him.

Ashley closed her eyes about to fall asleep when she heard her cell phone vibrate on the table , looking at the screen she saw Rob's name pop up. Before walking out the door she checked to make sure Julian was still asleep. After closing the door silently slut she slid her thumb over the screen then putting it to her ear.

"Hello" -A

"Hey Ash, are you busy"? -R

" why are you calling me"? -A

"I want to talk to you, I want to apologize for how I've been acting lately , I'm not trying to hurt you ........ That's why I've decide to stop trying to get you back ....... I love you so much Ashley" -R

"Rob...... I ...... I-" -A

"no Ashley you don't have to say anything........ I just wanted to tell you that..... I'll let you go back to whatever you were doing. I love you bye" Rob said cutting her off then hanging up.

Ashley didn't even notice she was crying until Rob hung up, she slid to the floor sobbing quietly so she wouldn't wake up Julian.

Unknown to Ashley , Julian had been awake...... He had woken up when her cell phone vibrated. Julian pretended to be asleep as she got up and went outside to talk to whoever it was.

Now he watched as his girlfriend of 3 years sat on the floor crying, for some reason that he did not understand his stomach hurt, he knew something was going on and he knew that Ashley would not tell him herself. Julian couldn't help but wonder if this certain change was because of that guy she loved before him.

Julian could only hope that Ashley would choose him over the mystery guy.