LOVE DOULOGY 1: Entangled Heartstrings

CHAPTER 26

Chapter 26

Pakiramdam ko ay sobrang bilis ang paglipas ng mga araw. I smiled wider upon seeing my reflection on the mirror. Sa pagbubuntis ko ay tumaba nga ako, at ngayon ay malaki na ang tiyan ko. Nakakatuwa dahil nararamdaman ko na ngang may buhay na nga sa loob ng sinapupunan ko, lalo na at minsan ay naglilikot ito at sipa ng sipa.

My eyes bumped on the papers at the side table. I walked slowly and pick the papers before I carefully sat at the edge of my bed. My left hand was holding the paper while the other one is caressing my tummy.

Napangiti ako habang tinitingnan ang ultrasound result. My baby is healthy, my baby boy is healthy. I placed back the paper on the table and caressed my tummy again while my eyes are tearing because of anticipation.

“Baby, mommy is super excited to see you, I love you.”

I wiped my tears when the doorknob moved. My mother entered the room holding a glass of milk. She smiled and putted the milk at the side table, she then sat beside me.

“You looked so happy,” she concluded.

I nodded. “I can't wait to see my baby, ma. I badly want to hold him already, to let him feel my love and care.”

“You're indeed a strong woman, Havannah. And I am so proud of you,”

Napangiti ako ay yinakap ang aking ina.

“And it's because of you, ma. Dahil sa walang sawang pagmamahal at suporta nyo, thank you ma, I love you.”

“I love you too, anak.” She softly whispers.

I don't know how could I continue living without them. Sobrang laki ng pasasalamat ko sa diyos na isinilang ako sa pamilyang ito. With them, I felt complete. Minalas man ako sa buhay pag-ibig, sinuwerte naman sa pamilya.

“Oh sya, drink your milk and go to sleep, okay? Sleep tight  Havannah.”

I slept peacefully that night. I don't know why but because of my pregnancy, the wounds in my heart started to heal. Iyon siguro ay dahil mas mahalaga sa akin ang hinaharap, ang pagiging ina sa batang aking dinadala. Maybe that's what they called mother's love, iyong binabalewala mo nalang ang sariling pakiramdam at mas pinagtutuunan mo ng pansin ang pagiging ina mo.

Hindi pa man sya lumalabas ay nararamdaman ko na isa na akong ina.

Time flies smoothly and I'm already at the most awaiting day of my life. Hawak hawak ang balakang ay inaalalayan ako ni mama at papa dahil pakiramdam ko ay manganganak na ako.

Impit na sigaw ang lumabas sa bibig ko nang makaramdam na labis na sakit sa tiyan ko.

“Ah!”

“Oh my, come on ma, pasok na!” Rinig kong sigaw ni Kuya Harvey sa loob ng puting Van niya.

Papa opened the door at dali dali akong pumasok roon. Mahigpit ang hawak ni mama sa kamay ko at nakita ko kung paano namuo ang matinding pawis sa noo niya.

While mixed emotions shattered upon me, I didn't know that it would be this painful and risky. But for my excitement to see my child, I would risk it all.

“Aray!” Malakas kong hiyaw habang nasa delivery room ako.

Mom is beside me. Ako naman ay mahigpit ang pagkakakapit sa kanyang kamay para humingi ng lakas at suporta.

“Kaya mo to, Havannah ha, kaya mo to.” My mom whispered.

“Come on Mrs... one, two, three... push!”

“Ahhhhh!” buong lakas kong sigaw at umiri ng umiri.

“There, once more. Pushhhh!” The female gynecologist ordered.

Hindi ko pa nga lubusang nababawi ang paghinga ko ay muli akong umiri ng buang puwersa. My breath hitched when finally, we heard the cry of my child.

“Congratulations, the baby boy was delivered successfully.” The gynecologist smiled and putted the baby on my chest.

Malaki ang ngiti ko nang madaplisan ng unang haplos ang mga kamay ng anak ko. Mama smiled wider and softly touched her grandchild.

“Welcome to the world, my son.” I said, teary eyed.

“Anong pangalan niya?”

Upon hearing my mother's question. A sweet scene flashes back on my mind.

“Kung magkakaanak tayo, if ever it is a boy, anong ipapangalan mo?” I asked while lying on his chest and treasuring the moment after our lovemaking.

Lance smiled widely and gently squezzed my hand and play with my fingers. “Clark, Clark Zander.”

Napangiti ako at sumulyap kay Mama. “Siya si Clark ma, Clark Zander.”

Muli kong sinulyapan ang aking supling. Tumulo ang luha sa aking mga mata habang pinagmamasdan ang bagong silang kong anak. Lahat ng pagod at sakit na naramdaman ko kanina ay unti unting napawi at napalitan ng kakaibang saya.

“Ang pogi naman, mana sa tito,” komento ni Kuya Harvey matapos makita ang pamangkin.

“Lalo na sa'kin,” ayaw magpatalong banat naman ni papa.

I smiled and shook my head. Unang dapo pa lang ng mga mata ko sa mga pilik mata at ilong nito ay alam ko na kaagad kung saan niya iyon nakuha. My baby's handsomeness is a resemblance from his father. At alam kung kapag nagkatagpo sila ni Lance ay hindi na siya magdududang anak niya ito. Saka ko na lang iyon poproblemahin. From now, my focused and attention is on my child.

That day, my life changed so good. Becoming a mother wasn't that easy but it is the most wonderful feeling above all.

“Say goodbye to, Momma and Dadda,” nakangiting sabi ko sa anak habang nilalaro ang mga kamay nito.

Lumapit ang dalawa kay Clark at hinalikan ang anak ko. Napangiti naman ako nang magsimulang maging emosyonal ang dalawa.

“Ingatan mo ang apo namin ha!” Mama said, teary-eyed.

I laughed, “oo naman po. Oh sya, baka malate kayo sa flight. Ingat kayo doon ha,”

My father hugged me and pinched the cheeks of my one year old child. Kakabirthday lang nito last month, February.

“Bibisita din kami rito okay? Please be extra careful our princess,”

I smiled and nodded. “Yes pa, thank you.”

“Hannah, tulungan mo ang ate mo rito ha.” Bilin ni Papa at sinulyapan si Kuya, “Harvey, you take good care of your siblings and niece.”

“Masusunod po, kamahalan.” Sabay na sagot naman ng dalawa.

“We'll go now,”

Muli nilang hinalikan ang apo bago nagpaalam. Uuwi na sila ng Pilipinas dahil may trabaho pa silang naghihintay doon. I waved my hand on them before the Van fade out my sight.

I kissed my son's forehead meanwhile. “Soon baby, tayo naman ang bibisita doon okay? I love you,”