SHE AIN'T LIKE A SISTER NO MORE

Chapter 37 ~ "You'll move on and have babies..."

JUSTIN

Peering at Jens phone for what feels like the millionth time, I see its 6:26am. Only 4 minutes since I last looked.
Holding her tightly against my side, I close my eyes and nuzzle into her hair, her scent radiating through my body. Letting out a blissful sigh, I slip my fingers down the back of my pants that she's wearing, and gently hold her soft ass cheek in my hand.
Fuck, I want her to wake up so badly! I feel like I've missed her forever, and don't want to wait another second to see her beautiful sparkling blue eyes again.
The eyes I put the life into. I can see it. Whenever I'm with her, they brighten, and every time I make her cum, they are the brightest they'll ever be. I fucking love that I affect her to the core.

So deeply and intensely.
Running my thumb over the soft skin on her ass, I can't help but wonder what would happen if I wasn't here.

If I wasn't to make it through the accident. She was what I was fighting for.

Every strained, painful breath. Every amplified beat of my heart that was slowing down. Everything I do is for her.
Could she live without me? Fuck, I don't want to even imagine the pain she'd go through. The loss, the heartache... I'm not sure I could sit above and watch her pain.

I know I'd be there, holding her through the tears, but would she feel me there?! Would she feel me stroking her soft hair? Holding my lips to her soft cheeks, rocking her to sleep and praying for her pain to go away.

I never want to be without her. No matter where I am. I can't find comfort in the fact that I know I'd always be with her. That would be selfish of me. I need her to know I would never leave her side.
I'd watch her gradually move on. Find someone else. As painful as it would be, I'd watch her walk down the aisle on her wedding day.

I'd kiss and congratulate her on having her babies, they'd be so beautiful.

Then I'd stand by her and her babies, love them and protect them every step of the way.

She needs to know. She needs to be told that it's okay to one day move on if something was to happen.
I need her to know I'll be there, every single step of the way. Supporting her through her journey, knowing I'm with her all the way.
Fuck!
I wipe the tears that are sliding down the sides of my face, wincing in pain as agony rips through my rib cage.
"You sore baby?" Her soft voice whispers.
I turn to her with a smile, seeing her eyes desperately trying to find mine in the darkness.
"Sorry baby. I was trying not to wake you." I whisper, feeling her hand caress my wet cheek.
I nuzzle against it, enjoying the contact.
"You've been crying J. What's wrong? Are you hurting?"
Nothing slips past her!
"Was just thinking baby...you know...if something was to happen to me..."
"No! We're not doing this Justin. I don't...you're here, and that's all that matters!" She interrupts with panicky eyes, shaking her head quickly.
"No, we are doing this Jen...I need you to know..." I whisper, turning my head a little and kissing the palm of her hand.
"We don't need to do this..." she whispers.
"I need to do this Jen...let me talk baby!" I say back, a little harsher this time.
She lets out a heavy sigh, and then buries her face against my chest, nodding a little.
"You gotta look at me though baby." I whisper, pressing my lips to her forehead.
She slowly lifts her head, her eyes focusing on mine, causing my heart to skip a beat.
"So goddamn beautiful baby." I whisper within a heavy breath I painfully exhale.
Her eyes twinkle back at me, as I leave a small peck against her pretty lips.
"I just need you to know, that if something was to happen, and I wasn't here with you..." I feel her body tense against my side at the words spoken.
"...just know that I'd never leave you baby. I'd be watching from above and looking after you. When you get married..."
"I will never marry anyone else!" She quickly states.
"You say that baby, but you never know. Plenty of men will fall in love with you baby, and one day when you decide one is worthy of your love, you'll get married and have babies." I say softly, a horrible pain ripping through my heart as the words come out.
Just the thought of her with another man...getting married to someone that isn't me. Having babies to someone else...never seeing something we've created together. I've always imagined it would be her having my babies. Her beautiful eyes on a little me...
"I don't want anyone else's babies J." She whispers, as a tear rolls down her cheek.
I immediately kiss it away, the salty taste of her fears resting on my lips.
"I pray it will never have to be that way baby. I'm just letting you know, that I'd love, protect and support you and your little babies every step of the way. You'd never live a day without me baby, 'cos I'd be there. All day every day...even when you're fucking someone that isn't me...I'd be watching. I'd probably still be trying to please you, 'cos I know no one else will ever put it down like me..." I chuckle, trying to take her tears away.
She grins widely back at me, reaching up and kissing my jaw gently.
"I love you J." She whispers, causing all sorts of crazy pleasure to run through my body. Like a warm tidal wave ripping through me, from the top of me, right down to my toes.
"I love you more Jen. Always have and always will!" I reply, pressing my lips to hers to shut her up as she attempts to argue with me.
When there's a quiet knock on the door, I let out a groan, and sadly pull away from her soft lips and warm gentle tongue.
"Come in!" I groan.
The door slowly opens, to see a Doctor with a hesitant look on his face.
"All clear?" He asks, causing Jen to giggle against me.
I recognize his voice as the man who took Sue for coffee. Still baffles me that I heard everything.
"All clear!" Jen replies, resting her hand on my lower stomach, sending shivers down my spine as she plays with the small hairs of my happy trail.
"I heard you were awake." The doctor says, smiling at me.
"I heard you took my mother in law for coffee..." I smirk back.
"Yes I did..." He replies, nodding slowly.
"How'd it go?" Jen asks from beside me. Her voice...I'll never get enough of it.
"Good I think..." he nods back at Jen. "How you feeling Justin? I'm not sure you'll remember me, I'm Doctor Roberts." He smiles. I like this guy. He obviously saved my life. I'm still here, with her, because of him.
"I feel great! Little sore on this side..." I say, signally to my left.
"You will be for a while. Do you recall anything?"
I go on to explain hearing the screeching tires and loud exhaust brakes, then the impact. Then laying in darkness listening to everyone around me.
"You don't remember telling me all about your beautiful girlfriend here?" He asks, with a smirk and raised eyebrows.
What the fuck is that look?! I feel Jens cheek heat up against my arm, as I release a worried "oh fuck...what did I say?!"
"Enough..." He smirks again.
That smirk gives it all away.
"Was I saying dirty shit about my girl?" I ask, worried.
I can see it in his eyes.
"Oh fuck...I'm so sorry baby, I didn't know..." I whisper, holding her tight.
"I know babe." She giggles back.
"Sorry Doc..." I say, turning back to him.
"All good...you also told me how much you love her." He smiles.
I smile back at him with a proud nod.
"When can I leave?" I ask.
"Justin...you've just woken up..." Jen whispers from beside me.
"She's right...Let's give it until tomorrow at least Justin. See how the pain is then."
I let out a childish heavy groan, before stating "But it's Jens birthday and I don't want her to have to sit in here all day!"
"Justin, shut up." She whispers.
"Careful baby, or I'll shut you up..." I growl back in my husky voice she loves so much.
"Wow...he really doesn't stop does he?" Doctor Roberts asks Jen, to which she rolls her eyes and shakes her head.