SHE AIN'T LIKE A SISTER NO MORE

CHAPTER NINETEEN ~ THE LETTER...

*JUSTIN*
Hey buddy, Happy 19th birthday! :)
I hope you're having an awesome day!
Listen, I would've written you letters for the past years but I'm running out of time...I can feel it now buddy, my body is giving up on me.
I wanted to get Jens and Chase's letters done first. It's hurting now, so I think this one to you will be my very last.
You've been like my own son for so many years Justin, I want you to know how much I love you. You've been the third light in my life, always bringing the smiles, and I love you for that. Thank you...so very much!
I know you'll be there for Chase, Jen and Sue when I'm gone, and I know you'll do your best to make them smile. But please don't forget your own smile bud, don't forget to do what makes you happy. You've always done things to help others, and make them happy. You gotta do you Justin! Push with the music bud, because you've got so much talent! I knew it from the minute you took over my drum kit, and then stole my guitar! Don't give up! As I've always told you, you have to BELIEVE!
I look down at my tattoo, and smile a little. He's the whole reason I got it done. He'd always drilled it into my head that anything is possible. He was probably my number 1 supporter, and then Jen took over that spot when he passed away.
I glance over at Jen, tears pouring down my face, and give her a little smile. She breaks the worried frown on her face and quickly smiles back, making those pesky butterflies swarm through me.
You'll do great things Justin, you always have done! I'm watching buddy, so go on and make me prouder than I already am! I hope you're protecting Jen like I asked you too bud...I know Chase will be too, but sometimes he goes a little overboard. You know right from wrong, and I hope you're keeping Chase calm when it comes to her. He'll never want her to grow up, she'll always be his baby sister, no matter how many years pass.
Keep him in check dude, don't let him get out of control when it comes to her.
Now...to the final part of the letter, but the most important...
You've gotta understand, this is hard for me to write at this time, as you're still so young, but I'm trying to picture you reading this on your 19th. Chase will be on that couch he lives on, leaving no room for anyone else...
I look over at Chase, slumped on the couch, Jen sitting on the arm rest, and shake my head, a little chuckle escaping through the tears.
Jen will be sitting on the arm rest, not wanting to cause an argument with Chase over a couch.
Your mum will be there, as she's the one I asked to give this to you...I hope she's well buddy, I hope she finds someone one day.
And Sue...my beautiful wife...she'll be sitting in her chair looking beautiful as always. I hope she finds happiness again. I hate the thought of leaving her Justin, it fucking kills me!
Oh...that's not nice to say is it?! You know what I mean...
Okay, so here I go...
I'm hoping by now, as a mature 19 year old, that you've told my daughter you're in love with her...
surprised?!
Don't be buddy, we knew it all along! No offence, but you've never been that great at hiding it! The way you've looked at her since she was only a little girl. You've always had so much love for her, I can see it clear as day. We could ALL see it...well, your Mom, Sue and myself do anyway.
It was never the brotherly love that was expected. As you both grew, I knew it would happen. I knew you'd realize one day that you're in love with her Justin. I'm really hoping that you've told her before it's too late and some wanker snatches her away from right under your nose.
She is my life Justin. She's my baby girl, and if I'm going to trust ANYONE with her, it's you.
You know what?! She loves you too! She's always hidden it better than you, but it's there! It's very much there!
It hurts to know I won't be there to see how it all goes down. It angers me to know I won't be there to stop Chase from beating the shit out of you...haha! (Sorry bud.)
Sue knows you've always loved Jen. She'll support you both. Your mom knows too. She's always loved Jen, you know that. She'll be thrilled, I know.
Chase is really your only concern at this point, and I know you're probably scared of what's going to happen there. He loves you though buddy, and I'm sure he'll forgive you one day. It'll take him a while, but he'll come around. He'll one day realize that no one else in the world could love her and protect her more than you do.
It breaks my heart to know I won't be able to walk her down the aisle one day, and see my grandchildren. I'm crying right now, just thinking of all the beautiful things I'm going to miss. She'll look so beautiful on your wedding day Justin.
Remember to remind her how much I love her please?! My beautiful little girl...
Shit Justin mate, I don't want to die! Look at what I'm going to miss! Life is too fucking short! I'm so fucking scared buddy. I don't want to leave it all behind. Don't take ANYTHING for granted, you never know when it'll all be over!
Fucking 41 years old and on my death bed! What a fucking joke. I see it now though bud, the light's calling me... fucking stupid light!
Listen, I gotta go...
Protect her from this sometimes horrible world we live in. Comfort her when she's sad and hurt. Calm her when she's angry. Feed her when she's hungry. Do everything in your power to make her the happiest girl in the world Justin!
Love her like there's no tomorrow! Because you just never know...trust me!
I love you bud, I trust you, and I give you my permission to be with her. To love her and hold her, and one day marry her and give us some beautiful grandchildren!
Good night bud, I have to go now... give my love to everyone, I won't be here tomorrow, but I'll be watching.
Love you little buddy.
Ray.
I stare at the paper in my hands, tears streaming down my face now. I look at the time and date on the top of the letter. I quickly realize he wrote this not even an hour before he passed away, making it so much more real.
I slowly look up through blurry eyes, gazing around the room.
Mom's tears accompanying my own, Sue sitting in her chair, wiping her own tears, purely from the fact they're seeing me cry. A rare thing for anyone to see.
I look over at Chase, as he looks back at me with a frown on his face.
Chris sitting there looking around at everyone absolutely clueless. Poor guy, what's he gotten himself into?!
Finally, I shift my gaze up to see Jen wiping her tears with the sleeve of her hoodie.
My precious baby girl. My absolute everything! My one and only. My forever...
My legs are suddenly carrying me across the room. Tears still falling down my face, I stop and stand in front of Jen.
I reach out and wipe her tears gently, before grasping her face in my hands.
Leaning down slowly, I hear someone gasp behind me, and I know its Mom.
Jens eyes look back into mine, clearly showing a crazy mixture of emotions.
Without waiting a second more, I close the small space between us and press my lips to hers in the most love filled kiss we've ever shared. All my love for her over the last 13 years pouring out of me, and into that one kiss. Purely for the fact I now have permission from a man who meant so much to me.
"WHAT THE FUCK?!" I hear just as I'm grabbed from behind.
I push him away, knowing who it is, and reattach my lips to Jens, nowhere near done yet.
"GET THE FUCK OFF HER! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!"
"Chase..." I hear Sue whisper.
I feel his hands grasp at the back of my shirt, throwing me across the room, his fist soon after colliding with my left eye.
"Stop!" Jen screams, as I stand there staring at Chase as he raises his fist once again.
I don't move. I don't even protect myself from his punches, because in his eyes, I deserve this.
"I fucking trusted you!" Chase yells in my face, breathing heavily.
"I love her bro, I'm sorry!" I state, shrugging my shoulders.
"NO!! Don't fucking call me bro! I ain't your fucking bro! I fucking trusted you with her fucking life!" He yells angrily, as his fist collides with my stomach.
I curl over in pain, regretting ever teaching him how to throw a punch.
"Chase! Fucking stop!" I hear Jen scream, as she runs to my side.
"Move away baby." I groan.
"No! There's nothing you can do Chase, I love him!" She screams, tears still pouring from those beautiful eyes of hers.
"Bullshit!" Chase spits back at her.
"Don't fucking speak to her like that Chase..." I growl.
"Fuck you! You're a fucking cunt!!" He yells, pushing Jen out of his way and slamming his fist into my cheekbone.
I recover from the blow, and grab the neck of his shirt, anger raging through my body due to the fact he's just pushed Jen.
"I don't want to hit you back Chase, but I will...if that's what you want, I'll fuckin do it! I'll fight for HER...I'll always fight for her! Every fucking day until my heart stops beating!!!" I yell, as everyone watches on.
I hold his shirt tight in my hands, as he stares at me with pure hatred, making my heart sink.
"Don't make me choose bro, 'cos I love you! But I'll choose her! I'll choose her every fucking time! It's always been her!" I say softly.
"Then choose her, 'cos as of right now, you're fucking dead to me!" He growls back.
Yup, can't lie, that fuckin' hurt more than any punch he's thrown.
"Your Dad accepts it, read that letter! Why can't you?" I ask.
"Dad didn't know that you go around sticking your dick in anything with a pulse!" He spits back.
"Fair call, but I love her man. There will never be another! I've loved her for years!" I shrug.
"You're a fucking cunt! So what, you're like together?" He asks, turning to look at Jen.
She hesitantly nods.
"How long?" He asks, looking back at me.
When I don't answer, he slams me back into the wall.
"How long Justin?" He growls through clenched teeth.
"About a month..." I mumble back.
"Cunt!" He growls, before slamming me into the wall again, only harder this time.
"Fucking stop Chase!" Jen says, trying to pull his hands off of me.
"Have you fucked him Jen? Fucked him like the little whore you are?" Chase says, facing her. I hear Mum and Sue gasp from behind me.
"HEY! You don't fucking talk to her like that!" I yell, pushing Chase away from Jen.
"Sounds like a yes to me. Fucking slut! You belong together, you're both backstabbing pieces of shit!" He growls, getting back in Jens face, as I watch more tears fall down her beautiful face.
"Don't-" I start, before he cuts me off.
"Don't fucking tell me what to do, you disrespectful piece of shit!" He yells, before turning back to Jen.
"And you...you are fucking nothing to me now, do you understand?! You are nothing but a filthy whore, and don't come crying to me when he breaks your fucking heart! He's a useless fucking cunt who uses chicks for a root! And you being the dirty slut you are, you fucking fell for his games!"
A loud smacking sound echoes throughout the lounge, as Jen slaps Chase across the face, shocking us all.
"Jen...don't do that..." I whisper, reaching for her hand. I know she'll regret it, and I don't want that for her.
She pulls her hand away from me, and stands on her tiptoes to get right in Chase's face.
"Don't EVER call him a useless fucking cunt! Call me anything you want, but don't EVER call him names!" She growls.
"Get out of my fucking face!" Chase spits back before turning around and charging up the stairs.
I stand there breathing heavily, and watch Jen doing the same. I take a small step and pull her into my arms tight, stroking her soft hair. Holding my shirt tightly, she sobs into my chest, as I watch Mom and Sue walk up beside us.
I tap Jens lower back softly, letting her know they're there. I release her from my grasp, handing her over to Sue, as Mom steps into my arms.
"I'm so proud of you Justin." She whispers, making me smile.
Suddenly we all turn around at the same time to see Chris slumped back on the couch.
"Sorry man..." I mumble.
"That was some crazy ass Jerry Springer shit!" He says, raising his eyebrows, causing all of us to break out in laughter.
I turn back to Jen, and pull her into my arms again.
"I love you...so much it's not even normal." I whisper, as I brush the hair that has fallen over her eyes and now sticking to her tears.
"I love you more." She replies, reaching up to kiss my lips softly.
I'm not sure whether that's how I expected it all to go down. I suppose after I knew that Ray knew all along...wow! What a beautiful surprise! I always knew Chase wouldn't take it well. But at least it's all out in the open now. No more hiding. No more sneaking around.
I hope Chase comes around and accepts it for what it is. But I meant what I said. I'll choose her every time! I'll fight for her until my heart stops beating. She's my entire world, and I'm insanely in love. It is what it is.
@chrisbrown saw the real definition of love today. Best wishes to the most loved up couple I've ever met! Passion fo' real! Nice meeting u guys!