SHE AIN'T LIKE A SISTER NO MORE

CHAPTER TWELVE ~ PART ONE

JUSTIN
"I think Jen is seeing someone man..." Chase says after taking a long heavy toke of the joint he's currently hogging.
"What? Why? Like...how do you know?" I reply, signalling for him to pass it.
' Okay, overprotective brother mode, get in it Justin...'
Fuck me, that feels weirder than ever before!
"I dunno dude...she's never around anymore. I only saw her Monday afternoon, and that's when we had dinner here..." he says, taking another long drag. I can tell he's stressed about the situation, from the way he's sucking back on that shit.
"So what if she is man? I mean, you gotta let her grow up eventually right?!" I ask, although I'm going through the days in my head, because something isn't adding up.
"I know...I don't like the fact we don't know the guy though, and also that she hasn't told us..." I hear him say from far away.
Wednesday...Wednesday...I had to drive to college to make final payment, and she couldn't come because she had too much homework to catch up on...
"Do you blame her though Chase?! You're on her ass 24/7 about who she can and can't hang out with!"
If she wasn't here doing homework?! Then where the hell was she?
"Pass the fucking joint man, stop hoggin' that shit, or I won't get you any more of it!" I growl, suddenly furious.
I pull my phone out of my pocket, quickly bringing up a new message.
*'Where were you Wednesday?'*
"I'm on her ass because I don't fucking trust anyone with her! You fucking know that!" Chase spits, shoving the joint in my face.
*Topdeck*
I went to school, and then came home to study baby, I told you that. x
Okay, so she's just absolutely flat out just lied to me. Where the fuck was she?!
Taking one last long pull of the joint, I pass it back to Chase before storming through the back door and up the stairs.
I charge through her door without knocking, to see her cross legged on her bed. Her laptop, various coloured text books and her phone taking up the rest of the bed.
Her eyes dart up to look at me, her brow already creased, her curls in a loose bun on top of her head, held there with a pen.
Fuck it, she looks so fucking adorable, and I want to scoop her up and run away with her, but the anger pulsating throughout my body reminds me why I'm here.
I decide to give her one last chance to be honest with me.
"Where were you Wednesday night?"
"I told you Justin..." She sighs.
"Where the FUCK were you, and why are you lying to my face right now?" I yell, grabbing hold of my hair in one hand.
"Sssh Justin! Someone will hear you!" She whispers, tears already forming in her guilty eyes.
"I don't fucking give a shit!! Answer the fucking question!" I say through clenched teeth.
She lets out a heavy sigh. "Kylie's. I was at Kylie's." Her voice soft, as she looks towards her lap where she's chipping away at her nail polish. A nervous habit of hers.
"You're fucking lying! You can't even look at me! Who the fuck is he?" I yell, my anger taking over again.
"I was at Kylie's babe, I promise!" She says, climbing from the bed and walking towards me.
She reaches for me, but I immediately pull away from her, before spitting an angry "Don't fucking touch me!"
"Baby I'm sorry! I didn't mean to lie, it's just...you wanted me to go to the college with you, and the whole college thing and you not being around scares the absolute shit out of me enough as it is, without having it shoved down my throat! I just didn't wanna upset you and make you think I just didn't wanna come!" She says, tears now streaming down her face.
"Well that sure worked a fuckin' treat, 'cos I'm not at all upset now am I?!" I yell, throwing my arms up in the air. "You're a fucking liar!" I state, getting the final blow in as I stare right into her bloodshot eyes before storming out.
I must admit, when I hear her heart broken sobs and her softly calling out "Please J..." I almost turn around and run back to her.
But I don't, 'cos I'm angry as fuck that she lied.
Opening the car door, I climb into the driver's seat, and slam my fists against the steering wheel. I look upwards towards her bedroom window, half hoping I'd see her, but nothing.
I turn the car on and slam it into drive, not looking back.
One less person to miss while I'm away.
JEN
I fucked up. I fucked up big time, and he'll never forgive me! I'm a fucking dick head! What have I done?!
Sliding down the wall and onto the floor, I curl myself into a small ball, suddenly feeling completely and utterly empty.
I have no idea how long I'm there for, all I know is that when my phone vibrates on the bedside table, its pitch black outside, and I'm an absolute mess.
Pulling myself from the ground, with the little energy I have left, I shakily make my way to my phone.
*JUSTIN*
I trusted you. With everything!
A fresh wave of tears washes over me, and I realize its 2:30am. He's still awake.
"Please Justin, just understand me. I want to talk. Not like this."
I don't want to do this all through messages. I need him here. With me, wrapped in his arms where everything is okay. Safe, warm and perfect.
*JUSTIN*
I'm not ready. Sorry we didn't get to go on our date. I'm leaving early tomorrow morning, so I'll see you around.
He'll "see me around"? My stomach drops, at those four words. "I'll see you around." Like I'm an acquaintance, and nothing more. Like we don't know each other inside and out. Like we haven't been friends for 13 years. Like the last 2 weeks never happened.
A crying mess all over again, I sneak beneath the covers, pulling them high over my head. Justin isn't here to shield me from the world, and it's the first time in forever that I feel unprotected and vulnerable.
"I'm coming over J, I can't leave it like this."
*JUSTIN*
Don't. I really don't want to see you right now. Good luck with your game on Sunday. I'm sure I'll hear about it all from Chase.
He doesn't want to see me. He doesn't even want to talk to me. My heart is broken, and it's all because I'm a fucking idiot!
"I won't see you for at least a week baby, please?! No, I'm coming over...I'll see you soon."
I climb out of bed and start looking for some warm clothes, when my phone calls at me again.
*JUSTIN*
For fuck sake Jen! No!! It's freezing out and you're not walking the streets this time of night!
He has a point, but the incredible need to fix everything is taking over every other sense right now. I don't care if I end up in hospital with pneumonia, as long as it gets fixed.
"I need to see you Justin. You're my world, I can't lose you over one stupid mistake. I'll see you soon."
Pulling my shoes on and reaching for my jacket, my eyes now blurry from the hours of tears I've cried.
*JUSTIN*
"Fucking hell! I'll come to you. There is no way you're walking here! I won't let you!! I'll be there soon."
I let out a relieved sigh, before stripping down and getting my pyjamas back on.
I pull the blankets around myself, suddenly feeling incredibly nauseous. He's going to end it. I know he is. Not even 2 weeks in and its going to be over. I'm going to lose him. I'm going to lose the beautiful man that I'm insanely in love with.
Shortly after, my bedroom door opens a little, and Justin sneaks through, closing it quietly behind him.
*To be continued...*
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