SHE AIN'T LIKE A SISTER NO MORE

CHAPTER TWELVE ~ PART TWO

JUSTIN
I look over towards the bed, to see Jen smothered with blankets, her face red and puffy from the tears she's been crying.
Without saying a word, we stare each other down for a while, before I take a slow step towards her.
"I'm so sorry Justin...please believe me." She whispers, her voice barely capable of speaking the words, breaking my heart once again.
I continue to watch her. Watch the tears that are still falling from those beautiful blue orbs that have paled since I was here last. The brightness that I love so much gone. Vanished.
It quickly reminds me of all the times I've held her when she's missed her Dad.
The times we've visited his grave, and she's sat between my legs and cried into my chest, as I softly stroke her hair, occasionally twirling it around my fingers.
The birthday's when she's received her letters from him, and desperately begged for me to bring him back. With me promising that if I could, I would.
I soon realize that the tears I'd always wiped away...were now there because of me. This time, I put them there, and I wasn't with her to kiss them away.
Feeling my heart break all over again, due to the realization that she's broken because of me, all because I over-reacted like a fucking idiot.
With new lyrics bursting through my brain, as per usual, I desperately try and lock them away for later use.
"Please...please say something!" Her pleading voice mixed with her broken sobs, breaking the silence.
Breaking my blurry vision, due to the tears flooding my eyes, I focus back on the beautiful woman in front of me.
"I'm sorry!" She whispers again, barely a voice, more the sound held within the heavy breath she's exhaled.
"I know." I whisper back, feeling my own tears falling down my cheeks.
I take a few more steps towards her, and start slowly moving her laptop and books that are still swarming her bed, even though she's buried beneath it all. Placing them on the floor quietly, I sit down on the edge of the bed, holding my forehead in my hands.
"I'm sorry baby." She says again, her hand running up my back.
The contact makes my heartbeat quicken, my breath hitch a little, and although I've always been aware of the effect she's had on me, I never quite realized the extent of it.
Feeling my body relax from that one touch, putting me in a complete state of calm, I slowly turn my head and look at her over my shoulder.
"I know baby. I know you're sorry. Please don't say it again." I say softly, pushing some hair, which is damp from her tears, back behind her ear.
"But I am. I just didn't want to upset you thinking..."
"Baby stop. I know." I whisper, leaning down and placing my lips against her forehead, whilst stroking her hair softly. I stand up and lift the covers, climbing in underneath.
Bringing her face to my chest, I hold her there tightly, my lips resting on top of her head.
"I missed you baby girl." I whisper.
"Oh J, I missed you too. So much!" She replies, sobs taking her over again.
"Sshhh baby, no more tears. I'm here now. Go to sleep." Rubbing soft circles on her lower back, my other hand now twisted within her hair, holding her head close to my heart.
Once her breathing has slowed, and her body is relaxed against mine, I let out a heavy relieved breath I wasn't even aware I was holding.
Asleep in my arms, where she belongs. So soft, precious and warm against my body.
"Good night baby. I love you." I whisper, my lips brushing against her forehead.
I slowly drift into a deep sleep, knowing more than ever, that I am without a doubt, head over heels in love with the woman I would kill for. Die for.
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JEN
Its Wednesday. It's been four days since I last saw my beautiful man, and it hurts. Hurts to the point my body is physically in pain, my heart aching for him.
He had tried to convince me to go up and stay with him on Monday night, saying he'd drop me home early in the morning. Working out that between finishing basketball (which we won by the way), and him having to drive me home at 4:30am, we'd get a total of 7 hours together. As tempting as it sounded, I knew we'd both be exhausted for class on Monday.
But now, right now...I'd kill for just 10 minutes with him.
Hearing my phone signal a text, I pull my phone and homework from my bag, before climbing on to my bed.
Smiling down at my phone, seeing his beautiful name across the screen, a smile automatically works its way over my lips.
*JUSTIN*
Hi baby! Listen to this...this shit is us!
'We can watch a DVD baby,
Sit up in the house and be,
just be there.
You ain't gotta get cute for me, truthfully. I prefer you with no make up, In one of my T-shirts, Bunny slippers on your feet, girl
Just tryna' be all up under me
On the couch or in front of TV
Baby that's gansta...
Let's just be (girl)
Let's just be
Ain't gon' be no runnin' round in these streets
Just my girl and me
Doin' whatever babe
Lets just be!!
Dinner from the microwave, okay...girl
I'm gon' put my cell away, no distractions.
Gonna take this day, To lay around together and be lay-zayyy
Play a video game
Or maybe I'll paint your toenails (I'll sing you a song)
I'll sing you a song if you want me to
Girl it's whatever you wanna do
It's so simple
Let's just be
Wrapped up in my arms Girl until the morn', Nothin is better my baby, Soon we'll fall a sleep, Then eventually we'll wake up and I'll be ready...
Overcome by passion and lust
Oh overwhelmed by each other's touch On the brink of explosion when we...
Girl when we...
When we just be!
Oh girl just be...'
(don't even think about pervin' on these Nigga's either! :-P )
I miss you baby girl. I miss us!!"
I smile as I read over the lyrics, already familiar to me, but so much different when you relate. When someone relates to it with you.
I giggle to myself as I type a text back.
"J, you stealin' Miguel's lyrics 'n' shit! You gon' scissor kick and rub your balls all over some random woman's face too just 'cos he did it? :-p "
*JUSTIN*
"Hahaha! You're a fuckin' nutter baby, I love it! I MAY actually just rub my balls all over your face if you ask nicely..."
I giggle a little, but also shake my head. Dirty boy. MY dirty boy.
"Ew. Lol. I'm good baby. I might just go find Miguel, I ain't need no manners for that nigga. He'll rub those caramel balls all over me without me even having to ask..."
*JUSTIN*
"Nahhhh, u know u love vanilla now baby. I wouldn't rub my balls on your face, I like you too much! I'd just make you lick 'em... ;-D"
Feeling an immediate blush work its way over my cheeks as I pull my pyjama pants on and climb back onto my bed, surrounding myself with my homework, another text comes through almost immediately.
*JUSTIN*
"You blushin' baby! I know u blushin' right now! I know you too well. You're so beautiful! Does your mom miss me? I bet she misses me! I bet she cries herself to sleep. She loves me more than she loves Chase. I know she does! :-p"
I giggle a little, such a cheeky shit! I feel as though I can hear his voice actually speaking these words to me. I can see the smirk he'd have on that beautiful face of his. I can just imagine how good he would smell right now. As if he's right here. But he's not! Fuck I miss him so much!
"She does miss you baby. She's a little mopey. Chase is worse. Been high as a fucking kite the whole time you've been gone. Feelin' sorry for himself and shit. And yes, I was blushing! You know me too well baby."
I open my textbooks deciding I need to start studying sooner rather than later.
I grab the remote for the CD player, and start playing all my favourites. 'Please excuse my hands' by Plies comes on first, and I blush at the memory of Justin singing and rapping it Saturday morning.
He'd stripped me down to nothing, and caressed every part of my body, inside as well as out. I remember him rolling me over so I was laying on my stomach, as he kissed down my back, entering his skilful fingers into me from behind. A little moan escapes me, from the beautiful memory, his hands, his voice, his warm breath against my flushed skin. The only thing I didn't like was the fact that he stayed fully clothed the entire time!
*JUSTIN*
"I do know you baby. I bet you're on your bed right now, planning to study. I also know you'll have your pyjama pants on already, and you've probably got your hair down, because you haven't quite had a chance to put it up yet, 'cos your fingers are too busy texting me. :-D you'll have your nigga gangsta shit blasting, and I already know you'd be lookin' sexy as fuck.
Am I right? I know I'm right! Tell Chase to pull his head out of his ass, I'll be back before he knows it!"
I almost melt, realizing how much he actually does know me. Who ever thought boys paid attention to things like that?!
"I miss you J. So much!"
*JUSTIN*
"I know you do baby. I miss you too. It's okay though, we'll be together in no time. x Oh heads up baby, Jayyyyysssuuuuunnnn Derrrrruuuulloooo been stalkin' our asses and using us for his lyrics 'n shit...I'mma sue his black ass :-p He even sings about that fuckin' photo booth baby, and how you were eating off my spoon! He knows you bite your lip too! How does this nigga know our shit boo? Go YouTube his song The other side!!"
I let out a heavy sigh. Friday isn't "in no time". Friday is forever away! Its 4:30pm now, & I won't see him until about 7:30 Friday night. That's two whole days. Two whole nights. That's over 50 hours away from now. I click the link he sends me, obviously too impatient for me to look for myself. I smile the whole way through. It's as though the song is written for us. It is indeed, as if he'd been 'stalkin our asses!
"But when did Jason Derulo get so sexy tho? :-P"
Deciding I absolutely have to start my homework, I get comfortable on my bed.
"...dancin' on me, like u wanna fuck me..." I mumble along to Lil Twist whilst setting myself up for a few hours of study. Oh well, not like I've got anything better to do.
Writing notes for a psychology test coming up, I continue to sing and rap along with the music. I can't help but smile to myself, and definitely can't help but get a little turned on when Chris Browns 'Sex' comes on. Oh my gosh, the night it all started. It feels like so long ago, yet only feels like yesterday.
Suddenly feeling the air in the room change, I put it down to the fact I'm blushing over memories of that night, whilst staring blankly into my text book.
Now lying on my stomach, my legs moving to the beat, something has definitely changed within the room. Suddenly my breath is taken away, my heart beat quickens, and someone has released the pet butterflies that live within my belly.
Slowly lifting my head from the pages of my textbook, I look to the window, then towards my bedroom door, to see exactly why I feel this way...
"Hi baby girl."
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