Breakthrough

Bearer of Bad News (Part Two)

"What?" my mom said looking at me confused.
"I'm pregnant."
"Sophia Elizabeth!" My mother gasped as my father sat there in what seemed like shock.
"With who? Who are you having a baby with?" She questioned. "With Blake?" She asked.
"With Blake," I repeated.
"Oh my god! Sophia. You are not ready for this and neither is he," she said shaking her head.
"What makes you think I'm not? A baby is something I've wanted for a long time and I've finally found someone to share this experience with."
"Sophie. Honey. You just got this job and you're just not ready."
"I know but a job is always going to be there. I can go back to work. I can work well up until I'm getting ready to have the baby,"
"Oh please Sophie. Jay, please say something," my mom said looking at my dad. I looked at him waiting for his response as he sat there speechless.
"Honestly Kimberly I am happy. You know I've always wanted to be a grandpa. A poppa," my dad said smiling. He grabbed my hand in squeezed it tightly and then brought me into a hug.
"You're going to be a great mom," he said as I started to tear up.
"Thank you Daddy."
"Jay, you've got to be kidding me. I mean please. You think she's ready for this kind of responsibility?"
"Kimberly. She's nearly 25 and is living on her own. She has a good job, a really nice guy for a boyfriend, and she has a very caring nature. She'll be a great mother," my dad said sternly as I looked back at my mother who still sat fuming in her seat.
"And what happens if this great guy leaves her? You know once he sees how much work this baby is going to be he'll ever out of there in a heartbeat."
"Oh for god sakes Kim! Stop doubting everyone. C'mon! Just stop it. I'm sick of it. You can't even give this man the time of day. And I wish you saw how he treats our daughter because it's like a god damn queen," my dad snapped at her.
"And how would you know Jay? How exactly would you know?"
"Because I've gone to his games with Sophie. We talk afterwards. He's taken me to lunch. Hell, he even called me to make sure Sophie was ok when she was out of town and not returning his calls. He's a good man Kimberly and you need to see that. He's a good man for our daughter and will be a good father for our grandchild. Now that's all I'm gonna say about this for right now," my dad said leaning back on the couch as I sat still with my hands in my lap. I couldn't believe it. For one, my dad how he completely put my mom in her place for like the third time in his life. And two, my mother wasn't the least bit excited for me. Not one bit. She looked at me with disgust.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked her.
"Because I'm disappointed with my daughter. You first go behind my back and start fooling around with this guy, and now you are pregnant. It's just not what I wanted and it shouldn't be what you wanted either."
"It may have not been exactly what I planned but it's what happened. It's what happened and I'm happy about it. You can't really change this," I said waving my hand around my stomach.
"Oh, you can change that. You can change that real fast," she said giving me the side eye.
"Excuse me?!" I said turning toward her.
"I said you can change that."
"I know what you said! Why would you say that to me? You want me to have an abortion? Are you fucking kidding me?"
"You aren't ready for this Sophia. You just aren't ready and you are going to regret this."
"No, you are going to regret this. This right here. All of these things you are saying to me right now. You are going to regret this because you will not be involved what so ever in my baby's life," I said standing up and grabbing my purse.
"Soph, come here sweetheart," my dad said getting up behind me as I walked to the front door.
"No Dad, I'm not just going to sit here and let her tell me to fix what is not even a problem. This baby is not a problem. And until she realizes that I don't think it's a good thing for me to be around her."
"I know, I hear you. But we can't have this family fall apart," he said desperately.
"I'm going to have my own family now. And I'm not gonna let it be like this one, and fall apart," I said as I walked out the door.

After leaving my parents I sat in the McDonald's parking lot and devoured two dipped ice cream cones. I decided to go to Staples and wait for Blake to get done with practice. I knew I didn't want to be alone but I most certainly didn't want to be with any of my family. I parked right next to Blake's car and looked at baby stuff on Pinterest. Just as I was scrolling through the endless number of monogrammed blankets I saw Blake, Chris, and DJ all walking together. They were all laughing about something. They always were. As I saw them get closer I could tell Blake looked a little surprised or confused to see my car next to his. I rolled down my windows as he walked ahead of the guys.
"Hey sweets, what are you doing here?" Blake said setting his bag down and resting his arms across the door.
"Hey, I just wanted to see you," I said partially lying.
"Oh, ok. Well here I am. Haha, you wanna go get lunch?"
"Yeah, lunch sounds good," I said smiling.
"Hey, Sophie!" DJ yelled from behind as Blake looked and rolled his eyes.
"Hi DJ," I said smiling at him.
"Hey Soph, you and B coming over Saturday night?" Chris asked.
"Oh my gosh is that this weekend? I totally forgot. Yes we will be there! Do I need to bring anything?" I asked him.
"Nope, just come hungry. We gotta a lotta food. But I'll see you. B, I'll see you tonight brother," Chris said walking off to his car.
"What's Saturday night?" Blake asked after waving goodbye to Chris and DJ.
"Its Camryn's birthday. I completely forgot about it."
"Oh ok. We need to get a gift then, right?"
"Yes, we need to get a gift. I'll take care of that," I said laughing.
"Ok, good. So, um you wanna go eat at Kathy's? I could use a sandwich and smoothie," Blake said picking up his bag.
"Yeah, Kathy's sounds good. I guess I'll meet you there?"
"Yeah, just text me when you get there," Blake said pressing a quick kiss to my cheek and began walking over to his car.

Blake and I got to Kathy's about the same time. We decided to go with a table outside because the weather was so nice. After our waiter came over and took our order we both sat in silence for a little bit.
"You ok Soph?" Blake asked adjusting his sunglasses that were perched on his nose.
"Yes," I lied. "No, no. I'm not. I told my mom."
"About the baby?" Blake asked.
"Yes and she flipped. She flipped. I knew she would. But she told me to get a fucking abortion. What mother does that? I'm a grown ass woman who has a job and a man who's gonna stick around! You're gonna stick around right?"
"She told you to get an abortion? This is her grandchild. What the hell? What did your dad say? And of course Sophie. I'm not going anywhere."
"Yes. She said that I could change this. And that I shouldn't want this. When really it's what I want. All of it. You, and this baby. It's what I want," I said tearing up. Thank god I had these sunglasses on so it made it less noticeable. At least less noticeable to everyone else except Blake. He noticed.
"Sweets. I know this what you want. I want this too. I don't want you to be upset," he said taking my hand in his and rubbing small circles on the back of it with his thumb.
"I know. And I'm excited. I really am. I just thought my mom would be too. I want her to be with me when I go shopping and help plan the baby shower. Everything. I feel like she can never be pleased with anything I do anymore," I said in between sniffles.
"I know. I know. You can't beat yourself up over this. It's not good for you, or the baby, ok?"
"Ok."