Being on top is second nature for the renowned supermodel, Mireia Aguero. She literally needed to be on top to get where she is now. On top of a bed? Sports car? Billiard table? Kitchen counter? Mini bar? Name it.
Her world expanded in the same way...
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CHAPTER 32: TOGETHER
MIREIA'S POV
They said that pain is important because it teaches us to pay attention to our body so that we can give it the proper care. It also signals our instinct to pull back from what will further cause damage. Sometimes you tell yourself, "I'm not bleeding that much. I'm okay.", when the truth is... you can't judge the gravity of your condition by the amount you bleed. That maybe you only see a small wound, but you're dying inside.
People also accept pain differently. Some face it head on, some feel numb, some hide it to put on a brave front, some lash out.
I handled things differently before. I was used to hiding my pain. May mga responsibilidad ako na kailangang unahin na harapin noon. Maybe it was an excuse, but it was what I had to do. I can't say that it's a healthy way of dealing with it. I know for sure that it caused me more harm by hiding what hurts me. It cultivated my fears, and it slowed my healing.
Today made me remember Steven. He and I were not that different. We both buried our pain before. The only difference was, I hid it but I could feel it, while he, on the other hand, was in denial of its existence. He wanted to be in control, but he hurt others because of it. I have people in my life that never gave up on me. He never had that.
Sabi ni Naynay sa akin noon, marami raw klase ng sakit na maaaring kaharapin ang isang tao. There would be a kind of pain that you will need to start healing from... iyong kailangan ng maagap na pag gamot, and there's also pain that you learn to live with. Pero kahit ano pa 'yon, dapat daw ay natututo tayo na makita rin iyon sa iba. For her, pain teaches us how to be compassionate. Kapag tinulungan ka raw kasi ng iba habang nasasaktan ka ay matututo ka rin na gawin din iyon kapag ang iba na ang nangailangan.
Nag-angat ako ng tingin nang maramdaman ko ang presensya na palapit sa akin. I held out an arm to Marthena when I saw her walking towards me. Yumakap siya sa akin at ipinatong ko ang braso ko sa balikat niya.
"Hindi ba mahirap ate?" mahina niyang tanong pagkalipas ng saglit na katahimikan. "Every wedding anniversary niyo ni Kuya Axel ay death anniversary ni Tita?"
When Axel and I got engaged for real, we really haven't thought about when to get married. Naging abala kami pareho lalo pa sa patuloy na paglala ng kundisyon ni Naynay. Both our priorities was to help her and made sure that she would be comfortable.
So when the doctors told us that it wouldn't be long, all I could think about was that she wanted to be in the wedding. She wanted to see me get married.
Now it's been five days since the wedding. Five days since my mother died in my arms. "Sa umpisa siguro. Pero naiintindihan ko rin si Naynay. Even if there's a reason to be hurt whenever that date comes, there would be a lot of reasons to be happy too. Pasko at anniversary ng kasal namin ni Axel. Hanggang sa huli ayaw ni Naynay na mahirapan na naman ako habang naaalala ang isang partikular na araw. She chose a day that she knew that I wouldn't be alone, and that wherever ago I could see joy from the people around me."
