ENTRY #24 - Decisions
I woke up with an excruciating pain in my head.
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon ng makitang hindi pamilyar and paligid.
My whole body shivered. Napahawak ako sa ulo ko dahil sa tindi ng sakit nito habang napapapikit.
Napayakap ako sa kumot na nakabalot sakin ng makitang iba na ang suot kong damit.
'Where the fuck Am I? And why am I wearing this lingerie? What happened to me?'
The last time I remembered, I was at Nathan's condo. He tried to rape me but the police came on time, right? Then I don't know what happened next.
Mabilis na tumalon muli ang puso ko ng makita ang isang pigura ng isang lalaki. He was standing against the glass wall facing the overlooking city full of night lights while holding his drink.
Tanging ang liwanag lang ng mga ilaw sa labas gayundin ang buwan ang nagbibigay liwanag sa loob ng kwarto kaya hindi ko makita ang mukha niya.
Bumilis ang kabog ng dibdib ko. Kabog na hindi ko gustong maramdaman. The heartbeat that I only feel towards this one person.
Xander.
He was so engrossed with his thoughts that got me a chance to freely watch him from a distance.
He was half-naked. Kumikinang ang katawan niya sa mumunting sinag na nanggagaling sa liwanag ng buwan. He was like a God watching over his people below. His body was so firm. All curves in perfect places na tama lang ang laki para sa taas niya. He's still wearing his pants that perfectly hugs his firm legs.
Natigil ang pagtitig ko sa katawan niya ng gumalaw ang kamay niya. he raised his left hand to drink from his scotch glass. Napasinghap ako ng bahagya dahil sa pag flex ng mga muscles sa braso niya. Mabilis kong tinakpan ang bibig ko pero alam kong huli na lalo na ng dahan-dahan siyang bumaling sakin.
Madilim at matalim ang mga mata niya ng magtama ang tingin namin. Mabilis kong iniwas ang mga mata ko sa kanya. Hindi ko kayang tagalan ang mga tingin niya.
I can still feel him staring straightly at me. Without any words saying. I can't even read what's on his mind. At mas lalong hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit at paano ako napunta dito.
Ako na ang bumasag sa katahimikan na hindi ko na matagalan.
"Anong ginagawa ko dito? Bakit ako nandito sa bahay mo? Why am I laying on your bed while wearing only this... thing?" napahinto ako habang sumusulyap ako sa suot kong lingerie ngayon habang nakatabon padin ng makapal na kumot niya.
Mas lalo lamang tumalim ang titig niya sakin pero hindi padin nagsalita.
"Can't you answer me!? Bakit ako nandito? Si Nathan? I'm not supposed to be here! I'm leaving!" I shouted frustratingly while bombarding him with questions. Nang wala paring makuhang tugon mula sa kanya ay mabilis na akong bumaba sa kama. Didn't mind if my underwear's were exposed because of this thin lingerie I'm wearing.
All I know is that I badly need to escape this room. I can't let myself share this tiny space with him any longer. I don't think I am able to trust myself any minute.
Ngunit hindi pa man ako nakakailang hakbang patungo sa pinto, when I immediately felt his hand aggressively grab my wrist.
Mabilis akong napa-harap sa kanya at bahagyang napangiwi dahil sa higpit ng pagkakahila niya sakin. His face was so dim. He's clenching his teeth so hard that I'm almost able to hear it. He pinned me against the wall while holding both of my hands against it as well.
