Rogue Moon (unedited(complete)

chapter 50

Seraphina~

I pounded my fists against the wooden door and screamed out in frustration. But no one answered my anger was met by silence.

Henry...

Tears streamed down my face as I moved to the far back corner of the room hugging my knees. This was all my fault...

I hugged my knees tighter wishing for this nightmare to be over... I wanted to save gramps and the townspeople from renard I wanted to free Damien from his collar and give the pack a chance to fight back, but who am I kidding...all I've done is ruin everything...and now Henry...

Gods...what am I going to tell amber? Would she resent me...does she already know?... And the rest of the pack...not only did I kill thane...now Henry too...

Looking up to the little bit of light streaming through the window from the moon I felt defeated... All this misfortune I've brought upon everyone... I'm no savior no friend... I'm just a dumb girl who's in over her head...

Burying my face in my arms I continued to cry in my dark forgotten corner waiting for this cursed night to be over...

~Next morning~

Sitting by the door I sulked, my eyes red and sore from crying while my cheeks were covered in dried tears. Soon enough a guard came by to bring food. He set the tray down before closing the door. I stared at the food sick to my stomach, I couldn't eat...

Pushing the tray away I continued to sit there staring at nothing... This was familiar... I remember feeling this way once before...as a child, after losing my father and my home.

I would often stare blankly at nothing, not wanting to speak, not wanting to think... Living like this was miserable...but I deserve it... My misery can't compare to the kind of pain and heartache amber will feel...i took their future away...they were my best friends but now...i ruined everything... And the pack...Renard will kill them too...how many others are going to die now because of my mistake...

The door opened once more, blinding me with the sunlight, and the man I've come to know as 'Travis' renards right-hand man stepped inside the shack... He glanced at me then at the tray of food.

"Not hungry im guessing... Get up we are going to get you cleaned up..."

When I didn't move he stepped out and the guard who was standing outside came in grabbing me by my arm he pulled me up to my feet and dragged me outside. I didn't struggle or try to resist I felt too drained...not physically but emotionally...

Thoughts swirled in my mind of what the pack would think of me what amber would think of me...not only did I just get my friend killed but ill lose another, and there's no telling what everyone else would think of me... I already hate myself...

I was dragged to an old washhouse and pushed inside, I glared at the man behind me but he merely looked at his pocket watch.

"Do be quick I do not wish to babysit you all day..." He locked the door behind me and I was left in the small hut, with a bathtub and sink.

I stared at the empty tub before turning it on, there was no point in boycotting the bath... Stripping down I looked at my dirty clothes and glanced at the rack with all the towels, a fresh set of clothes was already laid out for me. In turn, I angrily bit my lip knowing it was renards doing of course... How thoughtful...

I washed off in the bath and dried myself thoroughly once I was done, looking at myself in the mirror I felt sick just seeing myself...im ashamed...after everything... I can't bear the person I see in the mirror... I never should have tried to be something im not... Slumping down to the floor I hugged my knees holding back more tears.