Beaten & Bruised

Unbelievable

5 o'clock had finally rolled around and I was expecting James to show up at any time. Which was fine because since Logan had snuck off earlier I was starting to get lonely. Sitting alone in a hospital room with my thoughts was not something I needed right now. I was confused and my mind was playing games with my heart pulling it every which direction I just just really needed a break.

About the time I grabbed my phone off of the side table, I heard someone knock on my door. Without even thinking about asking who it was, because I assumed it was James. I welcomed them in. Before I could even get a good glimpse of who it was I knew. I saw the dirty blonde hair peer from the half-opened door and I felt my heart stop. As soon as I seen that it was Kendall I could feel my entire body tense up, as he shut the door behind him.

"How the fuck did you get in here!?" I exclaimed in fear as my heart bottomed into my stomach and his eyes that I once saw as a beautiful green were now dark as they stared back at me from the other side of the room. I grabbed on to the bed rail tightly as he moved a few steps closer to me. I couldn't react nor could I move fast enough in the state I was in, so I was stuck.

Kendall held his hands up defensively "Trinity.. I just want to talk. That's it" I let lose of the grip I had on the bed railing and he grabbed the chair that unknowingly Logan was once sleeping in but gave space between us. The two of us sat silent and still, it was obvious both of us were afraid of what the other was going to say or do. I didn't like this feeling. The fear, the uncertainty of whatever relationship we once had lingering in the air.. I flinched everytime he would move.

He let out a heavy sigh as his eyes thickened. My phone buzzed next to me but I was afraid to reach for it from past experience. I just knew he was going to back hand me or something if I took my attention off of him. So I ignored it but I knew it must of been James or Logan. Probably with a reasonable explanation as to why James was late or why Logan left without telling me goodbye.

"Look Trin. I fucked up" he said I caught myself getting annoyed and rolling my eyes but stopped. "You could have killed me!" I spat. Maybe it was a little dramatic but it wasn't so far fetched that it was a total lie. "You threw me down a flight of stairs, Kendall!" I said with my voice shaking.. I could see Kendall was getting aggravated with me because I started in on him and inevitability was interrupting him before he was even able to say what he wanted to say.

"I said I was fucking sorry! Fuck! can you let me say what I came all the way here to say! shit!" he said aggressively, it immediately shut me up and then made me shut down. The way he just spoke to me it triggered me and put me back in that dark place. Why was he like this? Why did I love him so much? When he was so incredibly mean to me. I wanted my Kendall back, the one who excited me. The one who showed me love in the beginning not this irritable, cruel man that was in front of me. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lash out like that" he said trying to touch me on the arm as if he were going to soothe me but I jerked away. "Please Leave" I said getting overwhelmed. He moved closer to me trying to touch my face but I wouldn't let him.

As soon as I said that and he pulled his hand back away from my face. My room door swung open and It was James and Logan with food and flowers. James's face was red with anger but Logan's face fell from a smile into sadness. As if I had just ripped his heart out and stomped on it.

"Why in the fuck are you here? How the fuck did you get inside this building at all? Where's the fucking security!?" James shouted sitting the stuff he had in his arms down and getting into Kendall's face. Logan set the flower arrangement down he had and moved over closer to me resting his hand on top of mine as if he were trying to sheild me from the nonsense happening. Even though I'm sure he must've of been thinking the worst when he saw Kendall and I in the same room after all that had happened.

James had Kendall pinned against my hospital room wall with his forearm on his throat. Logan interjected from where he was next to me and tried to get in the middle it was a unbelievable disaster.

"James, Kendall Stop! I know there's high tension and lots of emotions going on right now but Trinity is right over there! she's been through enough DAMNIT!" Logan shouted as he pulled the two of them off one another and security finally entered the room.

"Come with me!" the security guard said yanking Kendall by his shirt collar and roughing him towards the door. James still refusing to be quiet I finally had enough of everything. My head was pounding and my pain medication was wearing off so I yelled. "Look you don't have to be so rough with him" I said to the security guy as he was forcing Kendall out of the door. "James, thank you but stop!" I started to cry. "I am tired, I am hurting, and I am going through some shit! but none of this is helping so please leave!" I shouted looking at James, Kendall and Logan. All looked at me including security after my outburst.

James looked at me with remorse. "I'm sorry sis" he said as I shook my head. "Look I know you're upset. I am too but this is not how we fix things!" I said sternly as he nodded and walked over to me to give me a hug. "I'm sorry" he said as he pulled away and kissed my forehead. "It's okay." I replied as he walked towards the door.

"Well there's some dinner, some of your favorite magazines and such.. I guess I'll leave you alone. See you tomorrow?" He said I nodded and he reached for the door handle. Before looking back at Logan who was still standing silently. "You coming?" James asked. Logan flashed his eyes in my direction as if he were begging me to let him stay.

"Actually, Logan can stay.. that is if he wants to" I said Logan smiled and looked back at James obviously James wasn't exactly thrilled about being rejected by his own sister but ultimately knew why. His actions were completely uncalled for regardless of the shit going on. I just wanted some peace. Don't I deserve that!?.

"Fine. See you tomorrow Sis... I love you" he said with reassurance as he looked at Logan and then back at me before shutting the door.

I sighed and put my hands to my head. I had such an excruciating headache I just needed some relief. Logan hit the call button and someone came in and not long after I passed out, but Logan stayed the entire night.