Beaten & Bruised

living in the moment

The rest of the night was great, it was like old times. Being with a great group of people only made me even more sad that the tour was coming to a close.

We had to of been loudly obnoxious to the top floor with all of our doors being connected and all of us going from one room to the next rough housing and what not but it really made me feel good to see all of them just living in the moment.

Kendall had been glued to my hip all day, and hadn't had a rude moment or action come from his direction at all.

Which made me feel even better, I was still waiting on him and James to talk.
We tried to not bring up anything concerning the two of us because it wasn't worth making them fight over. Plus I wanted to remember this tour this way, four friends enjoying their time together. Seeing my brother happy enough to put all feelings aside and just kick back with the boys even Kendall.

I was trying to let the boys play some PS4, and stay out of the way so I went and layed down in the room Kendall and I shared and flipped through some channels.
I could hear them all the way over two rooms away yelling and talking smack to one another. I just rolled my eyes and turned the volume up.

I decided to watch the "Boy Meets World" reruns being played on Fox, and propped my head against the mound of pillows I had stolen from Carlos and Logans room along with Kendall and mines and got comfortable enough I almost fell asleep.

When I saw Logan slowly try to creep in to my room to grab something.

"What are you doing ?" I asked with a laugh, "oh I'm sorry I thought you were asleep, I was just coming to get my phone I left it in here earlier" he said giving me a super fake smile.

"Oh okay...." I said seeing he was still somewhat aggravated towards me, probably because I had been rude to him for no reason and had still yet to apologize. He turned towards the door to leave when I stopped him.

"Wait a second...." I said causing him to stop and turn around. He huffed but listened to me anyways.

"I owe you an apology for the other day.... I was upset and it wasn't your fault I'm sorry!" I said as I leaned up in the bed.

He shook his head and moved towards me slightly he always looked at me like he wanted to tell me something but could never find the words.

"Thanks... I accept your apology just try not to take things out on the people that care about you okay?" He said giving me a stern serious look with a gentle smile as he tried to leave the room again and I stopped him.

"Wait, wait..." I said as I moved in front of him before he could leave.
His eyes glistened with a thick wetness to them as he swiped his tongue over his lips. He looked like I was making him uncomfortable but I was just going to give him a hug.

"Thank you for being a good friend Logan..." I said wrapping my arms around his neck, I could feel him become sweaty and hear his throat gulp loudly.

When I pulled away from him and he unexpectedly out of nowhere leaned towards my face and put his lips against mine.

Before I could pull away I had realized that James was right... and Logan did have a crush on me.... I just didn't feel the same. I quickly leaned backwards to get him to pull away from me and he looked mortified. It was so awkward and I had to tell him I only thought of him as a friend.

"Um... Logan" I said shaking my head with my worried wrinkle going over my nose. "I'm with Kendall.... I. I...." I didnt know what to say... he just shook his head running his hand through his thick black hair.

"I'm sorry...." he said "I didn't mean for that to happen. "

I knew better he did want that kiss, "Logan your a great guy but..." I said as he looked at me with a heartfelt smile  and continued to shake his head.

"Its okay.... I hope Kendall makes you happy because you deserve that." He said as he finally walked away from me and headed back inside with the boys.