Beaten & Bruised

Aftermath

"Don't hit me, stop Pleeasse" I said when I felt two hands wrapped around my wrist. Not tightly but enough to freak me out in the middle of a nightmare. "ssshhhh no, no it's okay" I heard as I jerked myself out of my bad dream immediately freaking out only to find it was Logan trying to get me to calm down. "Trinity! It's me, It's me! Logan!" he said trying to relax my arms once I payed attention to who it was in front of me. My heart was pounding so loud I could hear it inside my ears, "Shhhh it's okay, your okay" Logan said as he let go of me and moved the sweaty hair out of my face. I was so embarrassed everything I had tried so desperately to hide was now out in the open for the entire world to judge me.. "Are you thirsty?" Logan asked seeing as I had just been woken up in one of the worst ways after such a long pain medicated slumber to say I was thirsty was an understatement. I cleared my throat and replied with a yes, "Okay, hold on i'll be right back" Logan said as he left my room to go find me something. 

<JAMES & LOGAN>

"Yo man, where are you going? I thought you were on Trinity duty?" James said interrogating me the second I stepped just a few steps outside of her hospital room. I rolled my eyes, Yes I was well aware of James's reason for being overprotective big brother.. He had every right but if he treated her like a prisoner than he definitely wouldn't get her to talk to him about whatever it was that was going on between her and Kendall. "James, I'm going to get her a damn drink... I'll be right back" I said bypassing him and getting to the nearest coke machine I could find. I knew all he was doing was out of love but James may or may not have been taking this whole situation in the wrong direction. I grabbed the last couple of dollars from my wallet and got her a dr. pepper and headed back as fast as I could before James ruined my moment to try and talk to her. "see, i'm back" I said shaking my head at James and going back inside of her room shutting the door behind me.

"One Dr.Pepper for the lady" I said twisting the top off and adding a straw through the top before handing it to her. "thanks" I said taking a couple of sips, It felt so good my throat was so dry and I was hoarse. "don't worry about it" Logan replied as he took a seat next to my bed. There was some awkward silences between the two of us because it was apparent either one us wanted to bring up the obvious. Logan broke the silence first with small subtle questions "How are you feeling Trin?" he asked looking me over. I felt as if I was being stared at underneath a microscope. I knew my face was bruised, along with the rest of my body... I just couldn't accept the fact that the makeup was gone and now everyone had to see what I saw everyday. I shrugged my shoulders as I took another sip. "Hey Logan, do you know where my phone is? By chance?" I asked on the fly. Logan gave me the (are you fucking serious look) and sighed aggravated. "What?" I asked seeing Logan's attitude do a complete 360. "You don't need text that prick!" Logan spat, I just rolled my eyes and leaned back into my bed more when James walked in. "Hey baby sister, how are you feelin'?" He asked as I continued to pout. "What's with her?" James muttered looking at Logan. "She wants-" Logan started to say when I cut him off rudely. "I want my phone James!" I said getting louder. James immediately started shaking his head at me. "No! Absolutely not! What do you want Kendall to show up and be your saving grace just to take you home and beat on you again. No fuck that no!" James said getting more upset the more he even had to speak about it. "Fine!" I said struggling to get up from my bed. "Ouch- ooo" I said immediately falling back into the sheets. "Woah no, your in no condition to walk" Logan said that was obvious... "James I'm 18 I'm not a child" I said only making James more and more fustrated at me. "Yeah. Trinity you are 18! But that dosent make you smart! Look at you right now, a beautiful young girl laying in a hospital bed bruised beyond any explanation and has so many other injuries from being thrown down a casion flight of stairs and all you fucking care about is getting that phone to call Kendall!" I sat there in tears swelled in my eyes holding them as tightly as I could so they wouldn't fall. "James man, calm down we don't need the cops called on us now" Logan said getting in front of James who was hot... but it was genuinely only because he was upset and didn't know what to do about it. Logan raised his arm to put it inbetween James and him to get him to chill out and I guess it caught me off guard because as soon as his arm went to move I flinched and James and Logan both saw it. "Oh Trinity, I'm sorry" he said making me do it again as he moved again.

In all seriousness Logan was a sweetheart and I knew he would never harm me... but I guess now that I was so used to being hit and  for so long I started to feel some post traumatic stress and everytime Logan moved his arm I took it as another hit to my face. I started to feel overwhelmed and I needed some space. James had simmered down and had backed off. Logan spoke up trying to apologize for something he didn't even do.

"Trinity, I-I didn't mean to- I would never-" he said when I stopped him before he could finish the sentence. "It's fine... can I please have a minute alone, please?" I asked as they both shook their heads and left me in my room. I don't know if the emotions just finally hit me or if I was finally realizing how serious this all was but I ended up crying myself to sleep. Kendall had seriously messed me up and it was going to take a while for me to get over something like this if I ever did at all.