Like a cockroach, Always Survives

73. Stefan Salvatore | I want you, I crave you, I long for you. I, love you, y/n

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Being best friends with Lexi and she knows how you feel about Stefan so she tries to get you together and open up but you think she still wants Elena but he doesn't. He wants you.

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 Lexi Branson, my bestfriend was in town visiting Stefan for his birthday. We had been planning this surprise since the dawn of time, or maybe since two years ago when she was trapped in Brazil for god knows what reason.

Stefan and Lexi get along like two peas in a pod, wherever one goes, the other follows. She was likes his older sister except the blood relation part.

But for years, I've had this gut-wrenching feeling that I've been slowly falling in love with Stefan, the Stefan Salvatore out of all men. I've never been so sure of my feelings for him until recently when I realised that every girl in Mystic Falls found him dreamy.

Obviously Lexi knew from the get-go that I adored Stefan, she in fact told me that I had feelings for him. Which made me angry that I couldn't see it earlier.

Recently Stefan and Elena have broken up, they were together for maybe for a year but things have been changed in their relationship. Elena pulled a Katherine and swapped brothers but this time she went for the older one.

Stefan has been on edge for months, I know he wants her back. He just wants Miss Gilbert perfect samaritan, everybody wants her. I despised her, she always had the one thing or person that I couldn't have.

"y/n." a voice says "y/n?" the voice wakes me up from viciously staring at Elena, I didn't hate her exactly I was jealous of her.

"hm?" I say looking around to notice that Lexi and Stefan had come back from their friendship day "you're staring." Lexi whispered through her gritted teeth as she sat next to my with a smile that even the devil couldn't see through.

"look you and stefan have a date tonight i-" "WHAT" i yell and all heads turn my way, Lexi grabs my arm dragging my up the stairs to her room.

She slaps my softly "i'm setting you two up, it's perfect." Lexi smiles innocently, my heart was racing at an alarming rate. It was a big deal, I hadn't had the balls to tell him my feelings for one, secondly IM GOING ON A DATE WITH HIM?

"You can't just do that Lex, what am I going to wear... where are we going?" I blurt out all my questions, overloading Lexi who holds me still "wait he went on a date with me?" I ask her "he completely agreed, look its a nice restaurant just outside of town so wear a dress." she says patting me down.

"A dress?" I say and she nods "maybe hes on the rebound so nothing too pretty, right?" I ask her and she shakes her head profusely. "I say go all in." Lexi says and I nod "go all in" I nod reassuring myself that he didn't just say yes because he needed a rebound.

right before the date

I sat in my room, in the rose gold dress that I had once before said I'd never wear. Lexi squealed excitedly, she had been trying to set Stefan and I up for years and never has she had this much success.

"you're finally getting to show yourself off, as you should." she smiles to me and I sigh "I don't know Lex." I mumble getting up and walking over to the mirror "do I look fat?" I ask her and she stands behind me giving me a sour face.

Then a knock at the door prevents Lexi from saying a word, she rushes over and I see Stefan in a suit "Is y/n... uh- is y/n here?" he sounded a bit nervous, Lexi looked back at me with an excited smile.

I grab my purse and walk towards the door and Stefan's face was shocked, he had never seen me in a dress, he had never seen me dress up at all.

"hey stef" I say as Lexi runs back into my room "you look... amazing" his cheeks matched my dress because he was red... sort of. He had a smile on his face and it was the cutest smile I have ever seen.

We both hug each other, eventually making our way down the stairs and out of the house where he reveals his old car that he had left in the garage for years because it was of no use.

"You and I use to ride this baby back in the 80's" he says looking over to me and I quickly walk over to the car to find that it was brand new, almost like it had never been used before "but how? it was like broken." I say astonished at the car in front of me.

"It was but when lexi asked me if I'd want to take you out on a date months ago, I knew that you wouldn't go on a date with a stupid modern car." he says walking over to open the passenger door for me.

Months Ago? Lexi wasn't here months ago? I mean she was for that short period of time but she wasn't here for long "Lexi told me that she had just asked you today whilst you guys were out?" I say and he shakes his head "I had to keep it on the down low, thats what she had called it anyways." he chuckled getting into the car.

He turned the key and the engine sounded like a sweet song playing into my ear "OOOH this baby is so perfect" I kiss the dashboard as if I were in a very platonic friendship with it or something.

"I even had a little something painted on it for you, check your door." he says with a sweet smile and I look at the interior of the door and it had painted Passenger side owned by Y/n Y/l/n which made me laugh.

"When I used to force other people in the back" I laugh as does Stefan "Damon actually tried to sit there once when you were out, I made sure he didnt" he says.

After a while we arrive at a sunflower field where the sun was just beginning to set, theres was a picnic. I'm glad it isnt some fancy whitmore restaurant "I know you hate public places." he mumbles "so I opted for a picnic" he chuckles opening my door for me and leading me out into the field.

"but Elena-" "elena isn't here, its just me and you" he says looking back to me as we make it to the picnic and sit down. "So I had to wear a dress for an occasion that doesn't mean I have a chance to outshine elena." I huff trying to find a comfortable position to sit in.

"Outshine elena?" he asks "Of course, I mean I've liked you for years and from the moment you met Elena you fell in love with her. I mean I'm sure you're only doing all this so you don't feel bad about leaving El" "one more mention of her name and I swear I will go back to her" he says and I immediately stop.

"If I wanted her, I'd be here with her. But I'm not, I'm here with the person I should have asked out in the first place." he says, my jaw drops.

"wow, yeesh, so this isn't about-" "I'm saving you a car ride, I know you're hungry so eat." he says opening the basket and laying out the food, all of it looking so delicious as I lick my hungry starved lips.

I reach for the rolls and Stefan laughs, amazed at how he knew me so well he stares at me for a bit whilst I eat my roll. My mouth becomes empty and I stare back at him "eat" I point to the food and he shakes his head.

Minutes go by without words being spoken.

"I don't want her" he finally gets out "I want you, I crave you, I long for you. I, love you, y/n." he whispers tucking my hair behind my ear before resting his hand on my cheek and leaning forward "so not the rebound?" I ask and he laughs shaking his head before kissing me softly.