Like a cockroach, Always Survives

149. Jeremy Gilbert | Step Back IV

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Jeremy Gilbert X Reader

Word Count: 757

Requested: Anon

Request: 4th psrt of stand back. Jeremy realizes he lost you and tries to apologize you and get you to stay. He wanted the cure badly for his sister.

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You were bedridden for a couple of days but after getting yourself properly checked you were back up and moving again, you phoned your family to let them know that you'd be back soon but you just needed to heal up a little bit before you did, you often found yourself apologizing to Elena who hadn't been angry at you at all. You felt so bad that you had taken away her chance at being human but she had told you that she would have given it up if it meant saving Jeremy's life, he was the only family that she had left and she couldn't risk losing him.

During the time that you were stuck in bed it was easy for Jeremy to pretend that nothing had happened but when he started seeing you walking around town with Elena and Caroline he was realizing that he lost something that he needed, he didn't know what he was going to do about because the last time that he saw you he flew off the handle and accused you of things that he knew you would never do. "If you keep staring at her you're going to get her hunter sense going off." Jeremy flinched when he heard Damon's voice.
"I really messed up." He admitted.
"Yeah, you did." Damon nodded as he ordered a drink.
"Thank you for your help." Jeremy rolled his eyes.
"Well, I'm not going to lie to you kid." Damon shrugged. "you messed up but what matters is how you fix it."
"Fix it? I don't think I can." Jeremy answered.
"Well, you won't if you keep thinking like that." He rolled his eyes. "How many times have I upset your sister, I always fix it but you have to actually try and fix it."
"How do I do that?" He asked.
"Start by explaining everything to her." He suggested, "maybe she'll be willing to listen to an apology if she understands what it was that you were angry about."
"She knows what I was angry about..." Jeremy reminded him. "I told her."
"You accused her of a lot of things." He reminded him, "start with that."
"Yeah alright, Damon whatever," Jeremy mumbled.

The next time that Jeremy saw you, you were out shopping and he decided that he was going to take up what Damon advised. "(Y/N)." He said softly and you looked over at him before going back to looking at everything on the shelf "you don't have to talk but please listen okay?" You didn't say anything, there was no indication that you even heard him but he knew that would be the case considering your line of work you were good at acting oblivious, he just had to hope that you wanted to hear what he had to say. "I am really sorry about what I said before, I never meant to hurt you when I said all of those things I was just angry because I was working so hard to get the cure for Elena that it felt like all the hard work that I had put in before that was useless and that I had failed to help my sister again." He took a deep breath "Elena wanted to be human so bad and that was the first time that we could offer that to her and I lost it."
"Jeremy, do you not think that I thought about that from the moment I took that thing from the tomb? I wanted to turn back every second but do you know what I said to Klaus when he told me that you would hate me?" you asked.
"What?" He asked.
"I said it was better that you were alive to hate me, I knew that you were going to be angry and I've had to face your sister every day, I apologize every day because she can't live the life she wanted." You explained, "and if you blamed me then everyone else must do right?"
"(Y/N) I never meant-"
"No you meant it, Jeremy, at that moment you did but it doesn't matter, I'm going back home anyway the same way I was before." You informed him and you grabbed whatever you were looking at from the shelf and continued on.
"Because of me?" He asked.
"I was leaving before and now I'm leaving again" You shrugged. "So thanks for the apology Jeremy but it's still goodbye." Jeremy stood stunned as he watched you walk away knowing that he may never see you again.