Like a cockroach, Always Survives

152. Lorenzo St. John | Commitment Issues I

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Request: Enzo likes you and you like him back but you're afraid of commitment. He tries to be patient but then he can't wait anymore and tries to move on and starts to date someone which crushes reader. Although she gets why they still end up into an argument.

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At every single turn, the people that were supposed to stick with you abandoned you, your father left, your mother had to work and you watched as friends walked in and out of your life, they picked you up wth they needed you and threw you away when they were finished. You thought that when you moved away from home that the problems that you had would have been left there but it seemed that they only got worse, you were on your own so your trust only got worse, you became friends with Elena and things started to get better or at least that's what you thought until you tried to start a relationship.

Lorenzo told you that he was willing to wait and he did wait for a long time and you were trying to be better but you had been on your own for so long that it was hard to change the way that you were and you were scared to rely on someone who had no obligation to stay with you. When Lorenzo knocked on your door you knew that something was about to happen, you invited him in and you sat opposite him as he looked at you "I can't do this anymore." He admitted and you frowned.
"Do what?" You asked
"This relationship." He answered. "It's hard and I thought that I could wait but I was wrong."
"Your leaving?" You asked.
"I'm sorry." He apologised.
"It's fine." You muttered and you looked away from him, he stayed there for a second before standing and showing himself out.

The next time that anyone saw you was when you went to The Grill you were working and everyone came in, it seemed like they all planned something, Damon and Elena spotted you at the bar and walked over "How are you?" Elena asked.
"I'm okay." You answered, "Just not ready to do that." You gestured the group of people your eyes-catching Enzo as he looped his arm around Bonnie's shoulder.
"Do you finish soon?" Elena asked.
"Mmm, 15 minutes." You answered looking up at the clock. "You guys want a drink?"
"Sure." Elena smiled as she ordered a drink for both her and Damon before going off to serve some other people. It took a couple of minutes before Enzo came over to the bar.
"Hey." He greeted you.
"What do you want?" You asked.
"Hey, how have to been?" He asked.
"Doesn't matter can you just answer the question, what drinks do you want?" You asked, he looked at you and sighed he was about to say something with someone tapped you on the shoulder, you looked back to see Liv was taking over from you.
"Shifts over." She smiled.
"Thanks, he was just about to order." You said as you walked towards the sink behind the bar washed your hands and then headed out the back.

You were on your way out when he stopped you again "(Y/N) wait!" Enzo called and you stopped steeling yourself before turning to him.
"What?" You asked.
"I thought you were okay with how we ended." He frowned.
"I am but that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt every time that I see you." You answered "every time I see you with Bonnie I have to ask myself what is it about me that makes everyone want to leave, you, my parents, my friends. The only thing that you all have in common is me and that's it isn't it, it's me I'm the problem and it hurts, I've felt this my whole life and I'm sick of it, I can't keep doing this anymore."
"(Y/N) wait! It isn't you." He promised.
"Yes! It is! Stop trying to make me feel better, you're making it worse!" You argued as you turned and walked away from him.
"(Y/N)!" Enzo called.
"Goodbye Lorenzo." You said and then you were gone.

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You knew that as a human you were one of the easiest people to kidnap but the fact that it was always you were kind of getting on your nerves and when you looked at Kai who was sitting across from you stuffing his face, you were only becoming more frustrated. "What are we doing here?" You asked.
"Hmm?" Kai asked as he looked at you. "You were a lot more scared of me before I died."
"Yeah then you died and I forgot about you until you showed up on my doorstep now what do you want?" You asked.
"A distraction." He answered.
"So what are you still doing here, a distraction implies that you have something else to be doing but I can assure you that no one has actually realised that I'm missing yet, you might need to tell them." You explained and he smiled as he stood up and walked over to you.
"Your right but there's just one thing that I need to do first." He said softly, he moved your hair over your shoulder and looked at the back of your neck, nodding to himself "Your defiantely the one." He lifted his wrist to his lips biting into it before forcing it to your mouth "don't worry you're not going to die, it'll just feel that way for a couple of hours."