REGRETS/// JJK

chapter 34

Y/n pov

We reached at taehyung's place.
Today i am going to stay here. I don't want see jungkook face after what he did with taehyung.
How dare he punch him?

He think that he can do anything but no he can't.
He is such a jerk, asshole, fucking bastard.
I was cursing him in my mind until i hear someone calling me.

Tae: y/n!

Y/n: yeah.

Tae: what are you thinking?

Y/n: nothing.

Tae: don't think about it too much.

I nodded.
Tae: go and freshen up.

Y/n: okay but i don't have any clothes.

Tae: you go i will bring you clothes.
I said walked to the guest room.
I used to came here a lot.
Me and taehyung spend our most of the time here.
I  love this place.

I went inside washroom and started taking shower.
I feel relaxed. So much things happened just in one day.
I am done taking shower so went outside wearing bath robe.
There was some tshirt and sweat pants were placed.

I think it's taehyung's.
I wore them they were bigger in size but more comfortable than the gown.
Its not my first time wearing his clothes.
I wore his clothes many time before.

I walked outside of the room and see him making something in kitchen.
He changed into comfortable clothes.
I went to him to see him cooking something.

Y/n: what are you doing tae?

Tae: ohh i am making ramean for us.

Y/n: ohh.
I see him staring at me.

Tae: you look cute.
He smiled.

Y/n: wow you just complimented me.

Tae: so i always compliment you.

Y/n: i know btw thankyou.
I smiled and he smiled back.
After that he done making ramean.

Tae: y/n! Come and sit down on the tabel.

Y/n: okay.
I said and sat down on the dinning table.
He served ramean to me and himself.

Tae: y/n you know i dont know how to cook so rn this is what I can give you.

Y/n: it's okay tae. I love ramean.
I smiled and he smiled back.
I start eating.
It make me remind the time when me and jungkook eat togethers.
I sighed and continue eating.

After we are done.
Tae: y/n you take some rest.

Y/n: okay you too.

Tae: are you okay sleeping alone.

Y/n: yeah tae i am absolutely okay with it.

Tae: okay so your room is just it was like before.

Y/n: really?

Tae: yes i didn't even touched it. Go and check.
I walked to the room beside taehyung's.
I entered inside and see everything same.
He didn't even touched it.

Yes i have a room of mine here.
I used to live here when i was in high school and even after shifting i used came here evenly.
It contains many memories of my childhood with taehyung.
This room make me feel safe.
There were some photo of mine and taehyung on the wall.
A book shelf full of comic books.

I see taehyung smiling leaning on the door.
I ran to him and hugged him tightly.
He hugged me back.

Y/n: thanks tae i love you.

Tae: yeah i....lo_ve you too.
I broke the hug and smiled.

Tae: okay so go and sleep now.
I nodded.

Tae: good night sleep well.

Y/n: you too.
Then he left the room and i closed the door.

I walked around the room touching everything.
I feels so touched.
I really missed this place.

Then i plopped on the bed.
It feels like home.
It contains many memories.

I closed my eyes and tried to sleep but suddenly the scene of jungkook and her girlfriend came to my mind.
I opened my eyes so that i can get rid of this.
Unknowingly a tears dropped from my eyes.

Why i am crying?
I don't love him that much?
Y/n he broke your heart he cheated on you.
But if i think clearly there was nothing between us from the start.

He never even accepted me as his wife.
He already had someone before our marriage.
Its not like we were like a real married couple so there is nothing to cheat.

He never loved me nor he ever act like that.
It was me who assume things.
Its me who broke my own heart.
Its me who came between them.
They love each other and i am just a outsider.

I should leave him so that he can live with her.
But it won't be easy for me.
I need to hate him so that i can move on from him.
He hurted me. I hate him i hate him.
I mummered.
But i know my heart says different.
How i will be able to hate him.

I started crying.
Why i can't just hate him?
Why cant i Just forget him.
I was crying when i heard the sound of door opening.
I see taehyung standing there with worried written on his face.

I got up and sit straight.
Y/n: t_tae..
He ran to me and hugged me tightly.
I burried my face in his chest.

Tae: cry as much as you want.
He patted my back and its just take me a second to breakdown crying.
I sobbed heavily.
After a long 10 minutes.
I stopped crying.

Y/n: tae i...

Tae: shhh dont say anything i know y/n it will be fine. I am here with you always. You know nah i will never let anyone hurt to anymore.
He said hugging me more tightly.

Tae: now sleep and don't stay okay.
I nodded. He was about to go when i stooped him by holding his wrist.

Y/n: please don't go. I don't want to sleep alone.

Tae: don't worry princess i am here for you.
I patted my head.

Y/n:sleep with me.

Tae: okay.
We lay down on the bed.
I hugged him and he hugged me back.
I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes.
I don't know when i fall asleep in his embrace.