REGRETS/// JJK

chapter 69

Y/n's pov

Me and jisoo were sitting in the living room.
While Jin and taehyung were in the study.
I was playing with the baby.
I just want to distract my mind from all the things.

Jisoo: y/n.

Y/n: hmm.

Jisoo: are you really okay?

Y/n: will you believe me even if I say I am okay.

Jisoo fell silent.

Y/n: I am not okay. I am just living for jungkook cause He wanted me to live.

Jisoo: but you have your whole life ahead of you

Y/n: my life ended the day jungkook left me. Now I don't care anymore.

Jisoo: you don't care...then what about taehyung?

Y/n: what?

Jisoo: y/n everyone can see it accept you. How much taehyung loves you. He loves you so much. He was with you this whole time. He was the only one who was able to take care of you. He might not show it but he also got hurt. He also have feelings.

I sighed and looked at the floor.
I know what she is talking about and I know she is right.
I can also see it but I can't help it.

Y/n: I know but I can't do anything. I also want him to he happy. I want him to leave me and start a happy life with someone who love him but he doesn't listen to me. I can't give him the love back he gives me.

Jisoo: can't you try? He is sacrificing everything for you can't you just try for him. I know him he will never ask for your love in return instead he will stay beside you thats how selfless he is. But deep down he also want your love.

Y/n: I....

Jisoo: I know it's hard but y/n you are young and have a long life ahead. Take your time and think about it. I am not forcing you but try to feel his love.

Y/n: how can I? My heart still belongs to jungkook. Even if i know I am hurting taehyung I can't give him that love . I can't see him as same as jungkook

Jisoo: so don't look at him as jungkook.  Try to look at him as Taehyung.  The taehyung your childhood best friend. He is not jungkook he is taehyung.  Don't misunderstand him as jungkook.

Y/n: but..it's not easy.

Jisoo: I know it isn't but isn't that what jungkook wanted. Doesn't he wanted you to live happily with Taehyung.

She said and I looked at her.
Words didn't came out from my mouth.
I just nodded.
I remember what jungkook said before leaving.
My eyes filled with tears.

Jisoo: what happened?

Y/n: nothing. I will come back.

I got up and walked upstairs to my room but when I was going to my room.
I stopped when I heard taehyung and Jin talking in study room.

Tae: he confessed himself.

Jin: who?

Tae: the driver of the truck which caused the accident. He said that he was given contract to kill y/n but jungkook came in between.

My eyes widen I shock.
Tears formed in my eyes.

Jin: but wasn't it a accident?

Tae: that's what I thought before but when I checked jungkook's phone. I found some photos.

Jin: photos?

Tae: hmm somebody was sending jungkook photo of y/n and other men.

Jin: who?

Tae: i met that men and he told me everything he was y/n's friend and it all caused jungkook the misunderstanding and they had fight.

Jin: so you mean someone was trying to separate them?

Tae: that what it looked like but now it's confirm.

Jin: who is it?

Tae: it...

Then suddenly taehyung stopped and next the door opened and taehyung was standing in front of me.

Tae: y/n!

He was shocked.
I looked at him with teary eyes.

Tae: did you..?

I nodded and walked in.

Y/n: who killed jungkook?

I said almost crying.
I can't hold back my tears and anger.
Jin came and put his hand on my shoulder.

Jin: first calm down.

Y/n: how can I calm down?

I yelled and stood in front of taehyung.

Y/n: Tae tell me who is it? 

Tae: I don't know.

He said looking down.

Y/n: what do you mean you don't know?

I yelled and grabbed his collar but Taehyung didn't said anything.

Jin: y/n calm down.

Y/n: why did you hide it from me?

Taehyung didn't said anything he just looked down.
Jin came and separated me from him and I stood there crying.

Tae: I am sorry..I hide it from you but i didn't had a choice. Your condition wasn't good and you.....

Y/n: I don't care. You thought it wasn't necessary to tell me who killed my husband in front of my eyes.

Tears rolled down my eyes.
It hurts remembering that scene.

Tae: I am sorry.

Y/n: I don't need sorry I just need the name of that fucking person who k_killed my jungkook.

Tae: I don't know even that men didn't knew. He just know that it was a girl.

Y/n: g_girl?
 
Suddenly a face came in my mind.
It might be her.
I turned around to leave the room but Jin hold me by my arms.

Jin: where are you going?

Y/n: I need to go.

Jin: where ?

Y/n: I will tell you later i need to go now please.

I wiped my tears trying to convince him.
But he didn't let me.

Jin: no you can't go anywhere in this condition.

I freed myself from him and walked further.

Y/n: please..l_let...me..go..

Before i can say anything my head started to spin.
My vision was getting blury.
Suddenly the vase on my side table fell when I accidentally hit it.

The darkness was consuming me and I was losing my consciousness.
Last thing I heard Jin and taehyung calling for me and running to me.
After that I lost consciousness.

Tae: y/n.....