REGRETS/// JJK

chapter 79

Y/n pov

I was sitting in the living room while looking at some books related to babies.
I need to learn a lot about pregnancy and babies.

Suddenly I heard the sound of entering the door pin.
I immediately stood up from the couch and looked at the door.

Could it be..?
The door opened and a middle aged lady walked in with a bag of grocery in her hand.

" Mam what happened?"

She asked me and I sighed and again sat back on the bed.
" Nothing aunty. Come in."

She is the maid hired by taehyung. For  a moment I thought taehyung came back.
But it's been a week since he left this house and he never came back again.
Nor he called or tried to contact me.

He really left. I signed and closed my eyes leaning back on the sofa.
I miss him but I know what I did was right.  By staying away from Me he will be happy.

I tried to ask Jin oppa about him he won't tell me anything. I just want him to leave happily. Jin and jisoo were really angry with me.

But I know He won't be hurt anymore.
It's better this way. 

" Mam the lunch is ready."

The maid called me. I nodded and made my way to the dinning table.
The maid served me the food.

I looked at the food and sighed. Since taehyung left I am always worried if he is eating properly or not.
But he might hate me now.

After all I did I am sure he hates now.
Anyone would hate me after that.
But it's good that he will move on and find someone else who could love him and take care of him.

But why does my heart hurt so much.
I can't seem to breath properly. It feels so suffocating and empty.

" Mam why aren't you eating? Is it not to your liking?"

I looked up at the maid and shook my head.

" No it's good."
I was eating when I looked up and noticed a bowl on the edge of the table.

" what's in that bowl?"

The maid looked at me with hesitation and said.

" I made some soup. "

" Then why aren't you serving me that?"

" Actually..I didn't realise when I was making the soup and accidentally added mushroom in it."

" so what's wrong in it?"
She looked at me confused.

" but mam aren't you allergic to mushrooms?"
Ohh yes I forgot. I am really allergic to mushrooms.

" oh yes. I am. Thankyou."
I was about to continue eating when I realised.

" But how do you know that? I never told you that even I didn't remember that."
How come she knew about this.

" ohh Mr Kim told me about this."

" huh? Who? Taehyung...told you all this."

" yes he gave me list of things you like and things you don't like. He told me everything about you. But still I added mushrooms. I am really sorry Mam..
Please forgive me."

Taehyung told her all this. He  remembers the things about me that even I forgets.

" Mam you are really lucky to have a friend like Mr Kim. He daily calls me to ask about you if you are eating or not. If you took you medicine or not."

My grip on the spoon tighten.
I looked up at the maid and said.

" It's ok....I will eat you can go and do any other work."

She nodded and left. As she left the tears I have been holding back started to flow from my eyes.
Here I thought taehyung hates me now.
But he still cares for me just same as before.

" why is he Like that? How can you still care for me? How can you not hate me. Why can't you just move on and stop caring about me. Can't you just be a little selfish and think about yourself."

The tears kept flowing from my eyes without any stop.

" omo...Mam why are you crying?"
I looked up to see the Maid looking at me with concern.

" Are you okay?"
I immediately wiped my tears.

" I am okay. Don't worry."
I said while wiping my tears.
She looked at me with worry.

" aunty..please don't tell this to taehyung. Please he will be worried for nothing.  I am really okay."

" But..."

" please don't tell him. Can you do this for me. Please."

Aunty sighed and nodded.

" Thankyou. I am done i will be going to my room to rest."

Then i made my way to my room and closed the door.
I don't want taehyung to worry about me. I don't deserve his worry.

Why is he still worried about me when I myself pushed him away.
I sat down on the floor hugging my knees and closed my eyes resting my head on the knees.

" Jungkook..what should I do? Please tell me."

At night..

I was just sitting on the couch near the window in the living room looking outside of the Window at the moon.

There was peace around me but my heart wasn't at ease.
There was a Strom inside of me.

I sighed and was about to head toward my room when I heard the sound of banging on the door.

" huh? Who could be at this time?"

At this late hour it could be robber.
I hesitantly made my way to the door.
Suddenly the banging on the door became louder and I flinched at the sound.

" let's check from the hole."

I looked out from the hole and my eyes widen when I saw a drunk taehyung banging the door.

" what's taehyung doing here this time?"

I immediately opened the door and taehyung stumbled into my arms.
I wrapped my arms around him preventing him from falling.

" Taehyung..what are you doing here At this hour? And why did you drunk so much?"

I didnt hear any answer from taehyung but I could feel him wrapping his arms around me hugging me tightly.

" Is..I_It..you y/n?"
Taehyung mumbled. Why is he asking that?

" yes Its me. Why are you asking me that?" 

" Are y_you real?"
He again mumbled hugging me more tightly.  He was drunk that he couldn't even stand properly by himself.

" yes taehyung it's me..what's wrong with you and why did you drank so much."

" so..y_you are really y/n.."

He pulled back breaking the hug and looked me With his half opened eyes.
Suddenly he touched my cheek and smiled afterward.

" you didn't d_disappear..e_even after I touched you. "

He smiled Like a child.

" why would I disappear? What are you talking about ?"

He cupped my face and smiled like a crazy person.

" From past days...E-verytime...you come before me..whenever I try to t-ouch you always disappears..leaving me behind."

My eyes softened hearing him talk.

" I couldn't touch you before ..but you are so pretty."

He's drunk he don't know what he is taking.

"What are you doing here? Why did you come here back again? You left right then why you are back."

I said and looked at him while my heart started to hurt with his each word.
He moved back and looked around. At all the houses and then back at me.

" yes..w-hy I am here..."
He thought for a second and then answered.

" I a-am here to ask you why you cried.."