REGRETS/// JJK

chapter 76

Y/n's pov

I looked out of the window while sitting on the couch.
It's a full moon so beautiful.

I placed my hand on my stomach and closed my eyes.
Suddenly tears started to role from my eyes.
I looked up at the sky with tears in my eyes.

Y/n: I don't know if i should be happy or sad...I am...happy cause there is your and mine baby in my womb but..I am sad cause you are not here..to be happy with me...do I deserve this happiness? Do I deserve to be happy at all? You will never get to see our child and our child will never get to see you and feel your love....

My vision got blurry because of all the tears.
Tears continuosly streaming from my eyes...as I remember all memories of jungkook.

Y/n: why you...have to leave...me alone..we were so happy..how much you wanted our first child to be girl...how you laughed when we talk about...that and when it's finally coming true you are not here..with me. I miss you so much.

I closed my eye and remembered past memories. When we were happy.

Past memories of y/n

Y/n and jungkook were walking in a park with hands in hand.
It was evening time.
Jungkook looked at y/n and smiled.
Y/n noticed it and asked.

Y/n: why are you smiling?

Jk: I love taking these short and peaceful walks with you.

Y/n: me too.

Jk: after all the trouble we went through I can't believe we are together now and walking side by side while holding hands.

Y/n: but we are and this is the reality. Don't think too much.

Jk: hmm.

Y/n smiled and wrapped her arm around his arm leaning her head on his shoulder.

Jk: are you feeling cold?

Y/n: no I am okay. I just want to walk like this.

Jungkook smiled and kissed y/n's forehead.
As they were walking slowly looking around.

Suddenly a some kids came running toward them and one kid fell down while running in front of them.
Other kids ran forward without noticing the kid. He was around 6 or 7.

Y/n: wait...

Y/n left jungkook's arm and walked to the kid and helped him in getting up.

Y/n: are you okay?

The kid stood up and looked around him. When he realised he was left alone behind he started crying.

Y/n: what happened? Why are you crying?

The kid didn't said and anything and cried more and more.

Y/n looked at jungkook and jungkook and y/n both bend down to the kid's level.

Y/n: don't cry. What happened?
The kid cried more.

Jk: stop crying kid and i will give you chocolate.
As soon as jungkook said the kid stopped crying.

Jungkook looked at y/n and gave a look of 'that's how you do it'.
Y/n rolled her eyes and looked at the kid.

Y/n: why are you crying? What happened? Did you hurt yourself when you fell down.

Kid: N_no..

Y/n: then?

Kid: my..friends are gone..I am..alone.

Y/n: don't worry they won't be far away. We will take you to them.

Kid: really?

The kid smiled and y/n smiled back.