REGRETS/// JJK

chapter 70

Author's pov

Y/n opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling.
She was in her from lying on the bed.
The last thing she remember was blacking out.
She collapsed because of weakness and suddenly taking too much stress.

She rubbed her eyes and got up.
She looked beside her and find taehyung sleeping.
His half body was on the floor and head on the bed his hand on y/n's hand.
Y/n looked at him and felt guilty.

Y/n: why? Why are you like this taehyung? Even when I said so many mean things to you how can you still stay beside me. Why are you again here beside me suffering yourself?

She said and pat his head.
How can someone be this selfless?
Y/n felt sorry for him and the reason of all this.

Y/n: why don't you just leave me? Why don't you go and live your own life?

Tae: because you are my life.

Y/n eyes widen and taehyung spoke.
He slowly opened his eyes and looked at her.

Y/n: y_you were awake?

Tae: hmm.

The room fell silent until y/n spoke.

Y/n: sorry.

Tae: why?

Y/n: for saying all those mean things. I was not in my senses.

Tae: it's okay. I don't mind.

Y/n: why don't you mind? Why you are like this? Please be angry with me don't talk to me. How can you still stay beside me.

She said as tear roll down from her eyes.
Taehyung smiled and wiped her tears.

Tae: i can't do that.

Y/n: why?

Tae: because I love you.

He said and y/n looked at him shocked.

Tae: yes I love you not like friends but as a person i love you.

He finally confessed.
Taehyung felt like the burned is lifted up from his chest.

Y/n: why? Why do you love me?

As more tears left her eyes.

Tae: i don't know. I only had you since I was child. I loved you since then when I didn't even knew the meaning of love. Even when I know you don't love me back I still loved you. I couldn't help but fall in love with you. This isn't in my hand.

He said looking down and y/n looked at him.

Y/n: why? Why you have to love me? Why don't you hate me? I don't deserve this love. I can't even give you the love you deserve.

Taehyung cupped her cheek and looked in her eyes.

Tae: you deserve all the love in this world. I know you can't love me but i wanna continue loving you even if you don't love me back. Please let me do that. I am okay as long as I can stay by your side. I will wait for you.

He said he is fine but y/n know he isn't.
His eyes are showing all his pain.

Y/n: what if i could never love you back?

Taehyung smiled and kissed her forehead.

Tae: i will accept it but I will never force you to love me back. I know you loved jungkook and you still love him but i only want one thing please....just please don't push me away..from you..please don't snatch the only right from me.

Y/n sobbed more and said.

Y/n: why i couldn't see your love? Why was I so foolish? If only i could have seen your love..i...it's all my fault jungkook died because of me and you are also suffering because of me. Why it has to be me?

Tae: nothing is your fault. You did nothing wrong. Jungkook saved you because he loved you and I am beside your side because I also love you.

Taehyung hugged y/n and rubbed her back trying to hold his tears back.
y/n cried more and more in the embrace of person she hurted the most.
Taehyung must be okay but only he know that he needed that hug the most.

He is afraid to break down in front of y/n.
He know he can't. He know she feels guilty for everything when she is not.
Taehyung wouldn't have ever confessed his feelings before but now he need to be beside y/n.

Slowly y/n fall asleep in taehyung's embrace.
Taehyung pulled her away and layed her down.
He looked at her face and he Finally let his tear fall down.

He can finally let his pain out.
He cried and hold y/n close to him.

Tae: i..know you won't be able to love me...but that last ray of hope keeps me going and even if you will never love me i will never leave you.

He moved down and kissed y/n forehead.

Tae: so don't ever think about pushing me away from you. Because I will die without you.

He then wiped his tear and and hold her hand in his.

Tae: but i promise I will take your and jungkook's revenge. I will make sure to punish the person who killed jungkook and destroyed your life. I promise y/n.

He lastly kissed her hand and walked out of the room.

Tae: who y/n was talking about?

Suddenly his phone rang and he picked the call.

Tae: did you found out?

His eyes widen and he nodded.

Tae: okay.

He said and cut the call the call.
He then called jin and Jin picked the call.

Jin: how is y/n?

Tae; she is okay.

Jin: that's a relief.

Tae: but i have something to tell you.

Jin: what is it?

Tae: i found out the person who killed jungkook.