REGRETS/// JJK

chapter 44

Jungkook's pov

I was sitting in my room thinking about something.
My mind is all messed up i don't know what i am doing?
I can't even come up with a answer.
Why i feel something when i am close to her?

She is nothing to me but why do i care for her.
Why i also feel pain when she is hurt.
What should I do?

Suddenly i heard some noise from outside.
I went to see what happen.
It came from y/n room.
I opened the door and found her on the floor.

Jk: what are you doing?

I quickly ran to her and helped her to stand up.

Jk: i told you to call me didn't I?

Y/n: i_ts.... jungkook.

Jk: what happened to you?

Then i realised she was drunk.
My eyes fell on the wine bottle on the table.
I sighed and looked at her who was staring at me.

Jk: why did you drink so much?

Y/n: i.. didn't..

She smiled widely and whispered in my ear.

Jk: come first sit down.

I made her sit down on the bed.

Y/n: jungkook.

Jk: hmm.

I pour some water in a class for her.

Y/n: do you like me?

I stopped at my track and didn't said anything.
I looked at her and she smiled.

Y/n: sorry i..forgot you have a girlfriend whom you love.
I am crazy to be asking something like that.

Jk: you are drunk let's talk later here drink water and sleep now.

Y/n: no i don't.......want to..

She said and tried to stand up but fall backward.

Y/n: ahhh!

Jk: why are you standing up? Your foot is still injured.

She laughed and said.

Y/n: ohh i almost forgot that.

I sighed and tried to force her to lay down.

Jk: sleep now.

Y/n: no i don't want to. My body is burning.

Jk: it will be fine when you will sleep.

Y/n: no i am not sleeping rn.

Jk: but you ha....

I didn't realised how close we were.
Our face were inched away.
Our eyes met and she smiled.
There wasn't much light in the room her skin was glowing and she was looking breathtaking.

Y/n: did i tell you how much handsome you are.

Jk: no you didn't.

She chuckled and suddenly kissed my cheek.
I was shocked that i quickly backed off and sat down straight.

Y/n: you are really handsome.

I can feel butterflies but i know she is just drunk.
Her cheeks were red looking so cute.
Her those kissable lips which were looking so tempting.
But hold on jungkook she is drunk.

Jk: sleep or i won't be able to control.

I said and looked away from her.

Y/n: why?

Jk: yo...

I turned around her but she was already so close to me.
My heart skipped a beat and i can feel the cold sensation running through my body.

Y/n: why? You don't like me ? Am i not beautiful? Am i not capable to be your wife.

I put my hand on her mouth and she looked at me with her doe shaped eyes.

Jk: no you are the most beautiful girl i ever met. You are nothing compared to other people. You are the most capable person in this world to be my wife.

I wasn't in my senses so i blurred out everything.
Like i was hypnotised by her.
She smiled widely.

Y/n: do you think like that? But then why can't you love me?

I was frozed at my spot i don't have any answer for that cause i love someone else or something else.
I don't know the answer either.

Jk: le_t's talk  later okay?

Y/n: no why you can't love me? Why you and me can live as real husband and wife. Don't you feel anything when i come closer to you.

She said came more close just inch away.
I gulped down looking at her lips.

Y/n: does your heart flutter when i come close....cause mine does.

My heart beat fasten i can feel it like it will jump out of my chest.
I was so drowned in her eyes that i didn't realise when i started to lean closer to her.

She closed her eyes and came closer.
After some moment our lips met.

It felt like heaven.
Her lips are so soft.
She slowly started to move her lips with mine.
I can feel it through my whole life.

But suddenly her head fell down on my shoulder.
I opened my eyes when i can no more feel her lips on mine.

She passed out on my shoulder.
Then i realised what i was doing.
What gotten into me.
How can I do it when i know she is drunk.

I looked at y/n who was sleeping peacefully on my shoulder.
She looks so innocent.
I gently pick her and made her lay down on the bed.

Jk: i am sorry.

I was about to go away but she hold my hand and mumbled something in her sleep.

Y/n: i...re_gret....loving you..

My eyes widen what did she said?
I couldn't hear properly but heard she regrets.
She regrets loving me.
Did she loved me?

Jk: she is drunk i can't believe everything she is saying.

She is drunk that's why she is saying all this.

Jk: i don't know about you but i don't regret meeting you.
I am happy that i met you no matter under what circumstances we met.

I patted her head while she was sleeping peacefully.
I got up and covered her with duvet before leaving the room.

Jk: good night.

I sighed and closed the door after taking a glance at her.

Jk: i don't have any answer for your all questions because i don't know myself about my feelings. I am confused and can't find an answer.